Little Monsters, I really need you...

[SwissMonster 29,118]

Hello little monsters!

I just had to make this thread cause I don’t feel good at all in the moment and only a very few people (in family and friends) can understand me.

First I have to say that I don’t give ANY fault to Gaga and her team. They did an amazing job with Joanne and the Tour! I have fibro too, not at the same level as Gaga’s but I know how hard it can be sometimes...

Anyways. I just have to share my thoughts with you cause otherwise I will completly fall in an all time low, alone, in my apartment. This hole thing couldn’t have happened at a more shittier time in my life.

I struggle very often with myself, but in the last time there is so much.

I just had a big fight with my best friend. I applied for a job I really deeply wanted (They invited me to the interview too)! One Day before Gaga’s tour cancellation I got the news that they don’t take me. Next week I have my finals, and already know that I will fail, even more now, cause now I have 0 motivation anymore. I don’t even like what I study, I don’t know why I do that. I don’t feel well in my body too, and struggle very often with that. I also got a small fibro attack in the night before Gaga cancelled. I was alone in my apartment when that happened and I cried all night. After a very long night I began sleeping, not long but a bit. I wake up and see the cancellation.

You can’t imagine how I felt. I just don’t understand why life is pushing me down that hard, all this happened at the same time. I feel deeply sad, I can’t laugh anymore, I can’t enjoy things anymore, I am not concentrated to learn for my finals anymore.

I follow Gaga since 10 years. At every tour there was something, so I couldn’t attend. I just have the feeling, something don’t want that I see Gaga. It sounds crazy or extrem to some people, but i saw the Gaga Concerts (I had tickets for Zürich, Cologne and Berlin) as a cure for all what happened in my life. I know that it would have helped me so much. I just cry now, all day long. I even considered  the last day as the saddest day of my life after the day my grandfather died. 

I know maybe that sounds extrem to some people but all this things happening at the same time is such a slap in the face and now I struggle even more. I was never at such a low point in my life. People who know me personally know that I am a happy person and that I try to make everyone happy. But I just have the feeling, that after that cancellation I lost that. I can’t feel happy anymore.

Monsters, I don’t know what to do, I have the feeling I lost a big part of my happy personality last day and I think I just needed to free my mind here. (Sorry if it was the wrong place)

I love you all and hope Gaga gets better very soon!! 

[MeloArtDramaPop 789]

Ill include you in my prayers

[lauramonster 267]

Sorry about you being so unlucky with Gaga's tours... I guess lot of things happened to you at the same time, it's normal you feel bad now.

It will get better honey 

[Septec 78]

I’m in the exact same situation! I’ve been feeling depressed for over 6 months now and a lot of stuff in my life has been going bad. The only thing I was looking forward to for the longest time now has been Gaga (I’ve never seen her live either even though I am a fan of 10 years). The cancellation really hit med hard too and I’m feeling even more depressed right now. With that being said this sadness will pass we just have to move forward. I’m sure the next time Gaga comes around she will amaze both of us! Stay strong, we little monsters have eachother!

[Sakrai 4,759]

It's mountains and valleys bro. Sometimes the valleys seem deep as f*ck and you feel like you'll never see the sun anymore, but that is a LIE. And if your mind is making you feel that way, it's lying, and you mustn't listen to it.

[YCHofficial 5,293]

Gaga Thoughts 

[Miley 5,006]

I feel you. I'm in the same position, I had five dates booked and all of those got postponed and now cancelled. I think it's healthy to also reflect on the situation as you do. I have a lot of studies right now, and I was looking forward to the concert, and I felt like it would give me some great energy and strength (as her tours always have given me). 

But I thought to myself this morning: What if I would be living in Australia? What if i would live in Asia? What if I would live in Africa? It would be so much more difficult to see Gaga, and I most likely wouldn't have attended if I lived that far away. Those people exist, fans that can't afford it, or can't make it because of busy schedule. I try to think that "What if I were them?" then you would have to accept the fact that you wouldn't be able to see Gaga live on this tour. We had expectations of course, since we got tickets, we maybe made plans with friends, picked out an outfit etc. If it would be between Gaga not touring at all, or Gaga not making music, I'd go with no touring. The music will always be there with you and for you. She has to heal now, in order to give us some great music. <3 

[SwissMonster 29,118]

10 minutes ago, Miley said:

I feel you. I'm in the same position, I had five dates booked and all of those got postponed and now cancelled. I think it's healthy to also reflect on the situation as you do. I have a lot of studies right now, and I was looking forward to the concert, and I felt like it would give me some great energy and strength (as her tours always have given me). 

But I thought to myself this morning: What if I would be living in Australia? What if i would live in Asia? What if I would live in Africa? It would be so much more difficult to see Gaga, and I most likely wouldn't have attended if I lived that far away. Those people exist, fans that can't afford it, or can't make it because of busy schedule. I try to think that "What if I were them?" then you would have to accept the fact that you wouldn't be able to see Gaga live on this tour. We had expectations of course, since we got tickets, we maybe made plans with friends, picked out an outfit etc. If it would be between Gaga not touring at all, or Gaga not making music, I'd go with no touring. The music will always be there with you and for you. She has to heal now, in order to give us some great music. <3 

This is very true. I can’t say that I feel better but at least it gives me an other perspective wish maybe will help me in the next days/weeks. Thank you a lot

[SwissMonster 29,118]

23 minutes ago, Rescued said:

It's mountains and valleys bro. Sometimes the valleys seem deep as f*ck and you feel like you'll never see the sun anymore, but that is a LIE. And if your mind is making you feel that way, it's lying, and you mustn't listen to it.

 

26 minutes ago, Septec said:

I’m in the exact same situation! I’ve been feeling depressed for over 6 months now and a lot of stuff in my life has been going bad. The only thing I was looking forward to for the longest time now has been Gaga (I’ve never seen her live either even though I am a fan of 10 years). The cancellation really hit med hard too and I’m feeling even more depressed right now. With that being said this sadness will pass we just have to move forward. I’m sure the next time Gaga comes around she will amaze both of us! Stay strong, we little monsters have eachother!

 

33 minutes ago, lauramonster said:

Sorry about you being so unlucky with Gaga's tours... I guess lot of things happened to you at the same time, it's normal you feel bad now.

It will get better honey 

 

39 minutes ago, MeloArtDramaPop said:

Ill include you in my prayers

Thank you for your nice words little monsters!!! 

[Drin Lon 7,875]

I'm so sorry hun 💓 I really hope it gets better for you 

Why don't you plan something exciting with your family / friends, so you can distract yourself from all the misfortunes that have been happening to you lately, I think it'd help a lot. 

Stay strong 

[SwissMonster 29,118]

3 minutes ago, Drin Lon said:

I'm so sorry hun 💓 I really hope it gets better for you 

Why don't you plan something exciting with your family / friends, so you can distract yourself from all the misfortunes that have been happening to you lately, I think it'd help a lot. 

Stay strong 

I will try to find something, but probably nothing can reach the level of attending a Gaga concert. But I will give my best to find/do something. I still have my train and hotel for Berlin so that’s already one thing.

We will see.

Thank you 

[FreeAsMyHair13 379]

I feel the same way and am sending you good thoughts 

Tonight's show was the only thing keeping me going over for the past year. I suffer from mild depression and anxiety and Gaga and her music has always been a source of strength and comfort to me. I have wanted to see her live since the BTWB and this was going to be my first chance. I've been feeling pretty down and lost/stuck in general, but the thought of finally getting to see her live was giving me a goal, something to work towards and try and stay positive for. I just feel so defeated and low now. My family get that I'm disappointed but they don't get how important & inspiring Gaga's music has been to me over the years. The idea that she might not tour in Europe for 2 or 3 years because of the Vegas residency is just so depressing. I really needed this show to lift my spirits, and now I just feel really low. Of course I know I'll get over it with time and I have nothing but love for Gaga, I hate that she is hurting and I'm glad she's taking care of her own well being. It probably sounds selfish but it's just so upsetting when my show was literally the next one. I'm so grateful for this site, and being able to  talk with other monsters who understand the disappointment  

[SwissMonster 29,118]

55 minutes ago, FreeAsMyHair13 said:

I feel the same way and am sending you good thoughts 

Tonight's show was the only thing keeping me going over for the past year. I suffer from mild depression and anxiety and Gaga and her music has always been a source of strength and comfort to me. I have wanted to see her live since the BTWB and this was going to be my first chance. I've been feeling pretty down and lost/stuck in general, but the thought of finally getting to see her live was giving me a goal, something to work towards and try and stay positive for. I just feel so defeated and low now. My family get that I'm disappointed but they don't get how important & inspiring Gaga's music has been to me over the years. The idea that she might not tour in Europe for 2 or 3 years because of the Vegas residency is just so depressing. I really needed this show to lift my spirits, and now I just feel really low. Of course I know I'll get over it with time and I have nothing but love for Gaga, I hate that she is hurting and I'm glad she's taking care of her own well being. It probably sounds selfish but it's just so upsetting when my show was literally the next one. I'm so grateful for this site, and being able to  talk with other monsters who understand the disappointment  

Me too!! I am so happy that I can talk with people here. Same with my parents... They understand that I am sad but don’t get really the point why! That’s why I had to come here to have people who understand me/ feel like me! I am really looking forward for a little tour during her Vegas residency or something, It don’t has to be the giant show, just seeing her and feeling her love would be enough. I hope she gets better soon!

[Hey Boy 1,063]

I want to give you a big hug Hope it gets better

[SwissMonster 29,118]

1 minute ago, Hey Boy said:

I want to give you a big hug Hope it gets better

Aww thx