Jesy reveals she loves Little Mix & they are her sisters but they need time

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Key parts of her interview with "The Guardian".

“I was having these panic attacks out of nowhere. I couldn’t understand what was happening. It got to the point where I thought, this is too much – I need to come out of this now.”

Nelson has been calm, but starts to cry. “I did the music video and had a panic attack, and it was pretty mental that day. God, I haven’t really spoken about it and I’m getting upset. Sorry.” She brushes her tears away. “After the video I just got back in a really dark place and ended up back in hospital. That was when my mum said, ‘No more.’” The tears are still falling, and she grabs another tissue. “I had already decided. Then the girls spoke to Mum and said, ‘We think Jesy should come out of this now. She has to look after herself.’” So in the end it was their decision as much as hers? “Yeah,” she says. “Yeah. I know there are people who think I’ve let the other girls down, and that I’m so selfish, but I do think there comes a time in life when you do have to be selfish and look after yourself, and it was really affecting me mentally.”

“Certain people on my team didn’t care.” She comes to a stop. “I’m not talking about the girls. There were people on my team who knew how I was feeling and didn’t give a ****. They just weren’t bothered.” She means management? “Yep. There was an energy when I walked into a room. I felt there were certain people on my team who just didn’t want me to be there.”
I ask whether her unhappiness has made it tough for the girls over the years. “Of course. Course. We’ve all had our own problems. But it’s never nice to be around someone who’s down and doesn’t want to be there. As much as I needed to come out of it for myself, I didn’t want to keep putting three other people through that as well.”

Now Little Mix is a trio, two of whom are pregnant. Does she think the group will stay together? “I reckon they’ll look after their babies, go off and do their own things for a while, then make a comeback together. I think they’re just as sick as a three. They’re still doing it for girl power. I still love them to pieces. They were like my sisters.” Has she been in touch with them? “No, not as much. Not now. I think we all need time. It’s a big thing that’s happened.”

“What I’ve said about a million times is that I never said I’m coming out of the band to never be in the public eye again. I said I’m coming out of Little Mix because I could not deal with the pressure of being in a girl band, not that I can’t deal with the pressures of being in the spotlight or being famous.”

In May she was accused on social media of “blackfishing” – a term used to describe white people who have altered their appearance to the extent that they look racially ambiguous. “I would never want to offend anyone, and that was really upsetting. I wasn’t aware that’s how people felt.” She sounds bewildered by the allegation.

“In a group, you never really get to show off who you are because you get allocated a part. So now I’m doing this, I get to sing how I want.”

Nelson’s sent me one of her new songs called Boyz. It is R&B influenced, with an element of hip-hop thrown in for good measure (including a sample from P Diddy’s Bad Boy For Life.) In the song, co-written with producers Loose Change, she calls herself out for being attracted to bad boys.

“Part of me feels I should be single for ever because in relationships you have to sacrifice so much. I like waking up and knowing this day is just for me and I don’t need to worry about anyone but me. I’m really not looking for a relationship any more.”

Perhaps the problem is that men just aren’t that great? She beams. “I wish I liked women, I really do. I said that to my sister the other day because she’s gay. I said, ‘Jade, I wish I loved women,’ and she was like, ‘Well, just try it – you never know.’ And I said, ‘No, I love men too much.’ I just love the way men smell, I love muscles, and women don’t have that, do they?” Some do, I say. “Ha ha! I’ll never rule it out, I’ll just say that.”

For now, Jesy Nelson is going to focus on herself. “I feel you only get one shot to make your impact as a solo artist, so I’m going all guns blazing. I don’t want people to be, ‘Oh, that’s nice,’ or ‘I expected her to do that.’ I want people to be, ‘**** my life, she’s here!’”

I remind her what her bandmate Jade Thirlwall said about her becoming a broken doll. Did she recognise that? “Yes!” If she was a broken doll then, what is she now? “Now? I am a dolly that’s been put back together again. I’m not going to say I’m a new dolly; I’m not going to sit here and say, ‘Oh my God, I’m not insecure any more, I’m the most confident person ever,’ because that would be bull****.” If she’s going to stay healthy, she says, it is vital that she’s honest with herself – and her fans.“I still have my insecurities and I probably always will, but it’s learning how to deal with them and accepting them. I still have days when I get down, but I’m definitely not broken. That’s for sure.”

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[COOOK 76,406]

I didn't fully understand her decision to leave, there were some things missing for me, until now. She just wants to stand for herself as the artist that she is after feeling overlooked and under-appreciated in a group. If that means going solo then more power to her as she is the sole navigator of what she wants to put out.

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25 minutes ago, COOOK said:

I didn't fully understand her decision to leave, there were some things missing for me, until now. She just wants to stand for herself as the artist that she is after feeling overlooked and under-appreciated in a group. If that means going solo then more power to her as she is the sole navigator of what she wants to put out.

So proud of her, it's great we've finally got more of the story and she was honest about her current situation with the girls.

Ugh I just love all four of them, I hope they can all be together again one day.

[littlepotter 75,377]

1 hour ago, Gimme More said:

I said, ‘Jade, I wish I loved women,’ and she was like, ‘Well, just try it – you never know.’ And I said, ‘No, I love men too much.’ I just love the way men smell, I love muscles, and women don’t have that, do they?” Some do, I say. “Ha ha! I’ll never rule it out, I’ll just say that.”

Spoken like a true Ghey

[enissa11 2,984]

32 minutes ago, littlepotter said:

Spoken like a true Ghey

like a basic ghey i'd say 

 

[littlepotter 75,377]

34 minutes ago, enissa11 said:

like a basic ghey i'd say 

 

Yes the basic premise of being gay is liking men not women. But you're special and different I assume? 

[BUtterfield 8 41,619]

Good for her I hope she charts well 

[Guest]

I can totally understand. When you start having many many panic attacks it's very good to have a change in your life, because you're just not fulfilled in your situation, it's a good decision and yes in the end u have to be selfish bcs u have to make yourself happy and she wasn't happy. 

[Joshie 757]

They “were” her sisters. Not are 

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24 minutes ago, Joshie said:

They “were” her sisters. Not are 

Well she implied they are not close now but still loves them to pieces, it's natural after someone leaves. I'm confident they'll become close again when the dust settles, they were literally all best friends.

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2 hours ago, Gimme More said:

I'm confident they'll become close again when the dust settles, they were literally all best friends.

It won’t be for a while. 

[Lady Rah Rah 2,006]

I always looked up to Jesy and had a huge crush on her when they won XFactor. I was the “bigger” girl out of my friendship group and when she spoke about feeling pressured next to her smaller band mates I related so much. She was and is absolutely gorgeous and the media were so cruel about her looks. I watched her documentary and cried because it hit home so hard. Her mental health suffered so badly and I just wanted to give her a hug. I am so glad she’s taken herself out of that situation and can be an artist on her own terms 

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1 hour ago, Lady Dimitrescu said:

I am so glad she’s taken herself out of that situation

Except she hasn’t. She is actively doing the complete total opposite… and then some. 

[Jase 13,400]

Love her and the girls. I hope Jesy starts to heal now that she doesn't have that huge pressure of being in a girl band because it was obviously consuming her.

[StrawberryBlond 15,020]

This straightens a lot of things out. I had no idea she wasn't as keen on the material they were offered for LM5. Glad to hear I wasn't the only one that was disappointed by that album. It's a big downside about being part of such a group - most of your songs are provided for you and you're under the label's control so there's a big chance not all of it will even be stuff you like. That's a big reason why Zayn left 1D. As for the blackfishing thing, I think so many people don't realise that Jesy's natural hair is really curly and in addition to self-tanning (which is a very common thing for white people to do) and over-lining her lips (which is a very common thing for young women of all races to do) ends up in with a look that gets misconstrued. She's just young and experimenting with her looks in a completely harmless way, people need to chill and look at things logically. I'd like to think she'll return to the other girls one day. They work as a three but they still look as if there's something missing. I guess it will depend on how well her solo work performs, let's be real. Plenty of band members-turned-soloists go back when things don't work out and stay soloists when things do work out.