Is 911 personally hard for you?

[GraphicModernGirl 121]

4 minutes ago, Antoni said:

Yes, but I'm addicted to emotional pain I guess because I keep rewatching just the end that makes me cry every time.

That's because it's cathartic. I don't cry usually but I rewatch movies and listen to songs that make me cry when I feel sad, even when I'm not that sad, just because I can't cry or express sadness in my everyday life and that helps. I don't know if that makes sense but it makes sense to me. 

[Rbr 421]

Yes, it is really hard to me and video transmits the message of the song perfectly. It’s very touching. 

I don’t remember the last time I felt such hard emotional impact caused by a Gaga music video. Maybe the Marry The Night one, but still... her last scenes for 911 are so real that I get goosebumps everytime I rewatch it. 

[malazam 15,710]

It is but that's not a bad thing.

[Demoncore 475]

For me I become deeply moved/affected by media and portrayals of very traumatic and vulnerable situations that I can relate to. It stuck with me all day, and at first i thought it was because I was so impressed and enthralled by the art unfolding in front of me.

But at the end of the day, I become very distant and sad. And all I wanna do is talk about it and process it, but I feel like no one in my immediate circle really relates to me on that level or understand the magnitude of it.

They kind of treat it like “oh there she goes again prattling on about another Gaga thing” but it’s like... it’s not only her work. I’m deeply moved by a variety of different media, and hers just so happens to touch on issues I’ve faced: misogyny, sexual assault, abuse, PTSD. I kind of feel like I become trapped in my feelings and sit with them.

But yeah, this is difficult to watch each time. I love it though and it’s so touching and honest in many ways—I wish I could someday process my emotions on that level with that much maturity and insight.

[GAGASLAYME 2,415]

6 minutes ago, Borislshere said:

The video yes. I was in my first car accident this past sunday so the ending of the video gave me the worst flashbacks. The sirens, people in pain, the guilt, the regret. Hearing her say "i'm sorry" while being distraught on the stretcher is what really got me. That feeling of guilt after an experience like that. I came home after my accident and held my dog and just apologized over and over to her. I couldn't process what had happen and all i felt was guilt. 

I feel like this video is exactly what i needed now though. Someone who can share the pain i feel even if it's just acting. I feel a little less alone. 

I had gotten in an accident,my first accident  about a week ago aswell.Everyone was safe just a few cuts and bruises in the end but the overall guilt and the inability of feeling anything or processing the whole thing, even while compulsively replaying it,was the worst part of it. Yes the video made me uncomfortable but thats what I needed and I feel like alot more people need who have dealt with not only car related trauma but traumatic experienced in general. Im happy she's using her art to artistically portray trauma ,the importance of taking care of mental health and keeping the subject real as we all have experienced at least some negative experiences in our life.

[Gatlyn 1,166]

19 minutes ago, Rbr said:

Yes, it is really hard to me and video transmits the message of the song perfectly. It’s very touching. 

I don’t remember the last time I felt such hard emotional impact caused by a Gaga music video. Maybe the Marry The Night one, but still... her last scenes for 911 are so real that I get goosebumps everytime I rewatch it. 

The difference for me is Marry The Night has the rising arc— she gets her platinum blonde hair, scores the meeting with Interscope, and becomes Gaga. You leave the video feeling like the world is your oyster.

For 911, I just come away from the video feeling heartbroken.

[crybrowz 3,240]

Yes! I dont exactly know why because I've never been in an accident and normally I don't have any problems with watching dark videos but for some reason the 911 video just takes me to a very dark place. I'm sure the more I watch it I will be desensitized to it and get over it but at the moment yes I do have a hard time watching it. 

[Gagz 2,572]

Yes, I find it hard to watch. The ending is so realistic with Gaga’s crying and the woman holding the corpse. It does take me to somewhat of a dark place. 
 

Is the car crash supposed to represent mental illness in some capacity? I’ve been trying to figure out how the crash connects with the song. 

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My heart started sinking as soon as she started crying and then I involuntarily started crying and not just tears but I started to cry uncontrollably, I have no idea what happened but I just don’t want to see her in pain 

[Gatlyn 1,166]

2 minutes ago, Gagz said:

Yes, I find it hard to watch. The ending is so realistic with Gaga’s crying and the woman holding the corpse. It does take me to somewhat of a dark place. 
 

Is the car crash supposed to represent mental illness in some capacity? I’ve been trying to figure out how the crash connects with the song. 

My interpretation is that depression hits with the intensity and suddenness of a car crash, but it could mean something else

[Hannah Babylon 26]

it was a nice video but i didnt see papa 911 anywhere x

[HeavyMetalLover10 44]

Its a relatable video and song tbh... 

[Woohoo 6,534]

For some reason the shot of the bicycle and pomegranates scattered all over the ground off the bag makes me sad. 

[MonsterMom 12,647]

Yes...it makes me really sad and the ending is almost too much. Her screaming and crying and confused is not easy for me to watch. Also knowing during the whole hallucination that she is being worked on by the paramedics also makes me feel sick. I’m not good with medical stuff, even when I know it’s not real 

[KindHML 378]

1 hour ago, Gatlyn said:

The 911 video is obviously one of Gaga's most artistic and visually pleasing yet. But I find it hard to rewatch because of memories it brings back of almost losing loved ones. As many of us do, I know people very close to me who have tried to take their own lives. This is hard enough to process on its own, and in a year where we're constantly reminded of mortality is overwhelming and confusing most days. 

So I feel a bit left out as Monsters are replaying and talking about every detail of the video. While I love the colors and choreography of the first few mins, hearing Gaga cry at the end is too much. It took me to a world without loved ones and even Gaga, which is a dark place.

Still, I'm glad Gaga went through this creative process with the song and video because if it heals her even a tiny bit that's all that matters. She tweeted this earlier:

This thread isn't to say millions of Little Monsters aren't watching the video on repeat. I'm happy for you all watching, loving, and analyzing!  I just wanted to express my complicated feelings and see who else on GGD feels this way. I feel much healthier typing this thread already.

We'll all keep loving Chromatica and the wonderful things this era brings. 

Well... It's my first sad reaction I'm gonna publicly talk abour... it's a "good" one. I was one of the first wanting a 911mv, and I DO LOVE IT. But it makes me come back to a place that I don't wanna go back to... 

Gaga's Gaga. It's sooooo conceptual. Visuals, outfits, actors, herself, technics, production and realisation ARE ON POINT. But for one monsters, even if I do like the MV and everything, I do feel like coming back to a place where I don't belong anymore... 

But thx Lady Gaga, for making this message public and for the graphics and the visuals. Always the best, even in pain and through dark times.