Kanyeee West 2,204 Posted October 21, 2016 Share Posted October 21, 2016 53 minutes ago, DanceInTheFlames said: My mom died six years ago when I was 19. Gaga's music is the one thing that has stayed constant in my life since then. She has lifted me up in ways I never would have believed and helped me figure out who I am and who I want to be. This album speaks to that part of me again, a part I have long forgotten about. A part of me died the same day my mom did. The part of me that was included in her. A life I will never get to live out. It's gone. And while I've learned to let go by now, sometimes I still find myself so lost. I can't always remember who I am without her and that piece of me that was intertwined with her. As I sing Joanne, at first I sing it to my mom. Trying to hold onto her while she slipped away from us. But then I realize I'm just singing to myself. To that part that died the day she did. I'm an adult now, but sometimes I still feel like a child without her. Life is strange and hard to navigate so independently. My life is great now. I'm happy for the most part. Yet, I still mourn my losses. I always will. Sometimes I have no ****ing idea where I'm going. But I know that I'm at least moving on. Gaga reminds me that there is beauty in the pain, and that truly that child in me never left, he just never got the chance to live out the rest of his life, like my mom, like Joanne. 22 minutes ago, Melibi said: So very sorry for your loss I also had a tragedy at age 19. (What is it about that age?) I was sexually assualted. My father said "this kind of thing is going to happen," so I never told my parents about my second rape 14 months later. Hearing Gaga say that Joanne was assualted at 19 left me sobbing last night. This album makes me feel less alone, and the title track is my own send-off to my previous life. I moved across the country after college to start a new life. There is beauty in the pain, you just have to open yourself to feeling it. Thank you, Gaga, for helping us all look at our own cadavers and seeing the beauty within them. oh guys thank you for sharing your story and inspiring others... I feel so sorry for both of you guys and the stories made me really sad... Hope everything would be ok for you... Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Melibi 414 Posted October 21, 2016 Share Posted October 21, 2016 14 minutes ago, Shahin said: oh guys thank you for sharing your story and inspiring others... I feel so sorry for both of you guys and the stories made me really sad... Hope everything would be ok for you... Thanks so much, @Shahin. I'm 26 now so time had helped a lot. I haven't spoken to my father in years but I'm doing just fine without him. (I actually saw the Monster Ball with him right before this all happened) This album has really helped me to get more in touch with the emotions that I pushed away. ARTPOP felt like an acknowledgement of pain, but Joanne feels like a final release of that...if that makes sense. I feel hopeful listening to it. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
DanceInTheFlames 154 Posted October 21, 2016 Share Posted October 21, 2016 You are all beautiful. I relaized today that the reason I love Gaga and her music so deeply is because her music filled an impossible void in my heart. Losing my mom was more than just losing a parent. I lost my home that day too, and my innocence. And I know so many of us have experienced a variation of things that lead to this same sense of loss. I found solace in Gaga's music as she sang and danced out her pain in front of all of us to see. To see someone embrace the darkness so fully and so fearlessly made me realize that I could do it too, made me realize I wasn't alone. Pain brought me to Gaga, to where I am now, so it's a bittersweet emotion. "Girl, where do you think you're going? Honestly, I know where you're going and baby, you're just moving on." Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kanyeee West 2,204 Posted October 21, 2016 Share Posted October 21, 2016 34 minutes ago, Melibi said: Thanks so much, @Shahin. I'm 26 now so time had helped a lot. I haven't spoken to my father in years but I'm doing just fine without him. (I actually saw the Monster Ball with him right before this all happened) This album has really helped me to get more in touch with the emotions that I pushed away. ARTPOP felt like an acknowledgement of pain, but Joanne feels like a final release of that...if that makes sense. I feel hopeful listening to it. I've been to many tough things to , but thanks to God, My Angel Daddy , and Gaga's inspiring music I could pass them and right now i'm in a happy place in my life , Can't tell you how relatable is "JOANNE" album to me and when I look at past and see how far Gaga and I've come and right now I'm listening to "JOANNE" makes me cry, also when I hear Gaga has been inspiring toward people makes me so much happy ,I've been really moved to you and the other Monster's story, try to connect with your Dad , I hope the very best for you , Take Car so much and know everything will be ok. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kanyeee West 2,204 Posted October 21, 2016 Share Posted October 21, 2016 1 hour ago, DanceInTheFlames said: You are all beautiful. I relaized today that the reason I love Gaga and her music so deeply is because her music filled an impossible void in my heart. Losing my mom was more than just losing a parent. I lost my home that day too, and my innocence. And I know so many of us have experienced a variation of things that lead to this same sense of loss. I found solace in Gaga's music as she sang and danced out her pain in front of all of us to see. To see someone embrace the darkness so fully and so fearlessly made me realize that I could do it too, made me realize I wasn't alone. Pain brought me to Gaga, to where I am now, so it's a bittersweet emotion. "Girl, where do you think you're going? Honestly, I know where you're going and baby, you're just moving on." Oh my God , I'm Crying... you're really strong and I'm proud of you, again thank you for sharing your moving story and inspiring us, each and every word you said was like it's from my mounth , be strong monster , love yoo much Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Melibi 414 Posted October 21, 2016 Share Posted October 21, 2016 2 hours ago, DanceInTheFlames said: You are all beautiful. I relaized today that the reason I love Gaga and her music so deeply is because her music filled an impossible void in my heart. Losing my mom was more than just losing a parent. I lost my home that day too, and my innocence. And I know so many of us have experienced a variation of things that lead to this same sense of loss. I found solace in Gaga's music as she sang and danced out her pain in front of all of us to see. To see someone embrace the darkness so fully and so fearlessly made me realize that I could do it too, made me realize I wasn't alone. Pain brought me to Gaga, to where I am now, so it's a bittersweet emotion. "Girl, where do you think you're going? Honestly, I know where you're going and baby, you're just moving on." This this this this. Yes. This is the magic! I'm so glad Gaga has helped you, too. She really is a queen. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
DanceInTheFlames 154 Posted October 22, 2016 Share Posted October 22, 2016 2 hours ago, Melibi said: This this this this. Yes. This is the magic! I'm so glad Gaga has helped you, too. She really is a queen. YAS. So looking forwarding to this next tour and sharing it with all of you. I'll be the one dancing like a freak. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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