TW!Anorexia - Have you used Gaga as thinspo

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Hi. This is gonna be a pretty vulnerable post. I would like to confess that i struggle with disordered eating and undiagnosed anorexia.

I still am but I am gonna attempt forced recovery soon because i feel so bad for my family seeing me always miserable when it’s time to gather at the dining table.

I would just like to share my guilt of using my idol for something so harmful, as thinspo, thinspiration or skinnyspo, terms the disordered community have coined a long time ago.

Especially her figure during The Monster Ball Tour:Theater Version, I would use them to trigger me so bad, and for a man’s physique since I’m a boy, I would obsessively look at her Jo Calderone pictures and dream of having her stomach and skinny curves.

I feel bad about it because at the same time she’s the one who encouraged me that recovery is possible ever since her Body Revolution campaign back in 2012. Right now i’m torn between reaching my goal weight and recovery. Hope I, and anyone who struggles with the same thing here, finds peace soon.

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I'm sorry you're having to deal with this, it's an incredibly shitty illness that can drag on for so long and has a really weird reputation that makes it hard to speak about. I've been bumping around between anorexia, OSFED  and recovery for a few years now as well. 
It's something I'm embarassed about too, but I've done the same as you. Thinspo is like a forcing a trigger down your throat and Gaga's unfortunately been a part of it for me as well, usually a few specific phases, mostly around ARTPOP times. 
I do think recovery is possible as well though. A few friends I've met along the way so far have managed to and I hope you're on the right way  as well. 

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Im sorry you’re dealing with this… I hope you’ll be able to overcome this & it’s a good thing to look out for help. That’s not an easy thing to do and requires a lot of strength & courage.

 

I admit that last year Gaga „inspired“ me to loose weight & train real hard, cuz Covid had me put on weight which I wanted to loose again. Then I saw her body during Joanne era which was so toned and sexy & I wanted to look like that which basically resulted in overtraining. I exaggerated my work outs and had to stop at some point because of my leg pain. Now I’m only focusing on myself and how I feel. I just want to feel comfortable and not compare myself to anyone anymore 

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Sending you lots of love, light and strength. 

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Yes, Fame Monster Ga used to be thinspo for me..

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Yes from TFM shoots, BTW shoots

and I’m ashamed that I used the born this way video for thinspo when it’s message was extremely the opposite of what many times I saw it for. It’s always a hard everyday journey 

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1 hour ago, Lemon Colored Skye said:

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this, it's an incredibly shitty illness that can drag on for so long and has a really weird reputation that makes it hard to speak about. I've been bumping around between anorexia, OSFED  and recovery for a few years now as well. 
It's something I'm embarassed about too, but I've done the same as you. Thinspo is like a forcing a trigger down your throat and Gaga's unfortunately been a part of it for me as well, usually a few specific phases, mostly around ARTPOP times. 
I do think recovery is possible as well though. A few friends I've met along the way so far have managed to and I hope you're on the right way  as well. 

 

1 hour ago, Mother of Puppies said:

Im sorry you’re dealing with this… I hope you’ll be able to overcome this & it’s a good thing to look out for help. That’s not an easy thing to do and requires a lot of strength & courage.

 

I admit that last year Gaga „inspired“ me to loose weight & train real hard, cuz Covid had me put on weight which I wanted to loose again. Then I saw her body during Joanne era which was so toned and sexy & I wanted to look like that which basically resulted in overtraining. I exaggerated my work outs and had to stop at some point because of my leg pain. Now I’m only focusing on myself and how I feel. I just want to feel comfortable and not compare myself to anyone anymore 

 

1 hour ago, chromaticabase said:

Sending you lots of love, light and strength. 

 

1 hour ago, Cello said:

Yes, Fame Monster Ga used to be thinspo for me..

thank you guys so much for looking out on each other i’m so proud of you and us

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30 minutes ago, Reject False Icons said:

Yes from TFM shoots, BTW shoots

and I’m ashamed that I used the born this way video for thinspo when it’s message was extremely the opposite of what many times I saw it for. It’s always a hard everyday journey 

unfortunately it’s exactly the same thing Gaga felt during the era  i’m just happy we get to look back it now with a happier and more authentic note ever since Gaga has been more open about her struggles after that era

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Yes. I imagine we can't post pictures but there are some looks of TFM era that live on my mind rent free. I'm glad that you are doing better op  blessings

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I’ve struggled with anorexia for about 15 years but have reached a point where my body is in healthy condition and it doesn’t control me anymore. I still am constantly obsessed with my body and how it looks, but I can power through. It took a long time to get to this point and I have high hopes you will reach this destination as well. I’m sure of it. Message me if you need anything. I got your back 100%

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I am so sorry that you have to struggle with this terrible illness, I hope that little by little you can get out of this dark you're in and be healthy again. I have a friend who's currently dealing with ED and it's not easy to see them starve or barely eat anything because they see themselves as overweight. You can reach out to me whenever you need someone to talk to! DM here, I check GGD everyday multiple times so I will defo see your message.

 

Sending love and health 

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38 minutes ago, dojo said:

Yes. I imagine we can't post pictures but there are some looks of TFM era that live on my mind rent free. I'm glad that you are doing better op  blessings

 

26 minutes ago, Reed said:

I’ve struggled with anorexia for about 15 years but have reached a point where my body is in healthy condition and it doesn’t control me anymore. I still am constantly obsessed with my body and how it looks, but I can power through. It took a long time to get to this point and I have high hopes you will reach this destination as well. I’m sure of it. Message me if you need anything. I got your back 100%

 

9 minutes ago, danbekim said:

I am so sorry that you have to struggle with this terrible illness, I hope that little by little you can get out of this dark you're in and be healthy again. I have a friend who's currently dealing with ED and it's not easy to see them starve or barely eat anything because they see themselves as overweight. You can reach out to me whenever you need someone to talk to! DM here, I check GGD everyday multiple times so I will defo see your message.

 

Sending love and health 

thank you sooo much 🥺

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2 hours ago, Cello said:

Yes, Fame Monster Ga used to be thinspo for me..

same. tmb 1.0 she was so thin and i wanted to look like that