Savage 1,783 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 Please read the entire thing. I have OCD, and this "episode" is so freaking annoying and anxiety provoking. Gaga has been my ultimate fav singer since fifth grade, and I am in college now. I just went to see my second fav singer, Rachel Platten, and i was afraid I was going to like her more. (i've seen her before and this didn't happen.) Anyway, I went to the show, and though I had a lot of fun, it wasn't NEARLY NEARLY as good as any of the Gaga shows I've been to. Anyway, I left the show, and since then, I have become less and less interested in Gaga, as if my fear that she is not my fav singer anymore is coming true. The thing is, I feel like this is a false intrusive thought. (At least I hope it is just an intrusive thought.) I went from being obsessed with her to being unable to listen to her music because i feel bored and it makes me anxious in literally a matter of two weeks. his fear has occurred before, when i stopped watching her videos and stopped following her on social media to make the Joanne World Tour a complete surprise when i went to see it. I realized it was irrational and it went away before the tour started, but this time it is longer. Plus, I have Apple Music now, so I can listen to more when I am on the go, which I'm afraid could be making me like her less.I know its okay to like other artists, but i feel like that's not what's wrong here. I feel like OCD is attacking what I love the most: Gaga. For example, when I think about hanging her posters in my dorm room next year, it makes me so anxious and sad because I feel like I don't like her nearly as much, but that doesn't happen in two weeks, right?! Also, I liked her when I started fearing I wouldn't. (OCD has also made me believe I am straight before after coming out to people ... it was awful but i have since put that to rest and know i am gay.) Anyways, does anyone else have OCD experiences that are similar to the one I'm going through now? Does it attack what you love? Please share your experiences to help ease my mind. Or just share your thoughts on my situation, anything helps, and I just wanna get back to loving Gagz; I have never strayed from being a fan, not even when everyone called ARTPOP a flop or when she was doing C2C. Please share your thoughts and experiences with or without OCD. Thanks! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
PunkTheFunk 124,432 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 I have OCD (compulsive checking) but it's not really Gaga related It mostly just results in me massively wasting my time and making my life much harder than it has to be. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
joannesrats 26 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 I don't have OCD, but I have really bad generalized anxiety regarding most aspects of my life. When it comes to Gaga and her music, I do get bored of listening to the same stuff over and over after a while and so I start to listen to other artists more and it almost feels like I'm cheating on her. But when she comes out with new stuff, I get right back in and love all her old music more than anything, too. But I get what you're saying, sometimes I definitely do just skip most of her songs when they come on shuffle because I'm tired of it. I don't think that you're the only one nervous that you're losing your love for her so don't worry! I confuse boredom and not liking it, too. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
SolidSnake 2,804 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 I do! Ive had something similar happen. My advice? Let something minor like that happen. If you truly like her more it won't hurt anything. I became much less crazy just doing breathing exercises and telling myself It's not a big deal. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 @Savage I have the exact EXACT same thing. Yes it is OCD, yes it's intrusive thoughts. I'm going through the same right now with another artist (Elvis). I started getting obsessed with something else lately and OCD constantly makes me feel like that means I hate Elvis, so I force myself to listen to his music etc but it makes it worse! It's like my body/feelings are not mine! I have pure-O OCD so when I suffer from a bad obsession I get horrible intrusive thoughts, but I healed my last obsession in 2016, YET, I still have some dumb OCD "leftovers" per say about things I love. The thing is, something you gotta hold close to your heart is that OCD is a bully, and it'll attack things you love ALWAYS. I love my mother to death and OCD has tried pathetically to attack her. Everything you love has to become pain (with OCD). My advice: Ignore the feelings, ignore the thoughts, when you feel like you're disinterested in Gaga even thought it's not true, don't force yourself to listen to her songs and tell yourself that OCD is like a cloud, a grey cloud and underneath there are the true feelings, it's a disorder and it means nothing. It'll disappear into thin air the more you ignore! Feel free to PM me cause we have the same struggle! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Antoni 5,332 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 Like @PhillipBagshaw, I don't have OCD but I do have an anxiety disorder and others. My experience falls in between Phillip's and the OP. I haven't /hated/ an artist I've loved, but I did a complete flip on Lana Del Rey a couple years ago. Went from loving her to tolerating her. I just listened to Born To Die a couple days ago for the first time in years and ended up falling in love with it all over again. When it comes to stanning Gaga, there are times that she does not lead my music choice. Sometimes I start to think I like another artist more than her, and it depresses me a little bit. But she comes back with new music and I'm all hers again. My name isn't Timmers Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
illbekind 1,316 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 Hun, there's only so many times she can perform Million Reasons without you getting bored. Perchdt for Million Reasons (SOPHIE Remix) Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Savage 1,783 Posted July 11, 2018 Author Share Posted July 11, 2018 8 hours ago, kyanewest said: @Savage I have the exact EXACT same thing. Yes it is OCD, yes it's intrusive thoughts. I'm going through the same right now with another artist (Elvis). I started getting obsessed with something else lately and OCD constantly makes me feel like that means I hate Elvis, so I force myself to listen to his music etc but it makes it worse! It's like my body/feelings are not mine! I have pure-O OCD so when I suffer from a bad obsession I get horrible intrusive thoughts, but I healed my last obsession in 2016, YET, I still have some dumb OCD "leftovers" per say about things I love. The thing is, something you gotta hold close to your heart is that OCD is a bully, and it'll attack things you love ALWAYS. I love my mother to death and OCD has tried pathetically to attack her. Everything you love has to become pain (with OCD). My advice: Ignore the feelings, ignore the thoughts, when you feel like you're disinterested in Gaga even thought it's not true, don't force yourself to listen to her songs and tell yourself that OCD is like a cloud, a grey cloud and underneath there are the true feelings, it's a disorder and it means nothing. It'll disappear into thin air the more you ignore! Feel free to PM me cause we have the same struggle! Thank you so much, hearing it from someone else makes me feel so much better. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
nerdfacekillah 4,485 Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 yes i have OCD and years before was even worse and it didnt affect on my love for gaga. but in 2014 it actually affected also on her, because i fell in depression because of my straight crush and i wanted to deny the feelings for him. the combination of ocd and depression was the worst. this led me to become so closed in myself, i wasnt interested in anything gaga related or entertainment related and it was like i only wanted to focus on my school. i felt like nobody understood me and i was trapped in my own existence. but fortunately this ocd started to fade away and i started to become obsessed with her again and i still am. i do have ocd now but not as much as i had years before. i hope you will get better too If you don’t have any shadows, you’re not standing in the light. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted July 11, 2018 Share Posted July 11, 2018 6 hours ago, Savage said: Thank you so much, hearing it from someone else makes me feel so much better. You're very welcome, it does the same for me! You're not alone and you're also not abnormal, we can fight this one day at a time ❤️ Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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