inxcognito 222 Posted March 26, 2017 Share Posted March 26, 2017 this is how i feel right now.. i just wanna share my story, in short version, of what's happening currently to me (sorry if wrong section) i was in relationship and we broke up less than a month ago.. we know eachother for 5 years and we are literally the best friends in the world, we have such special and amazing relationship that's it very rare nowadays.. we met in high school and those 4 years we were best friends telling eachother everything.. well not exactly.. in september 2016. when college started we both moved to different cities and it was really hard for both of us to leave family and friends.. after two weeks when college started, he invited me over for weekend to spend time together.. that first night i came, we talked about some really deep things and our deep feelings, just a normal things friends do.. but that night changed our lives forever... there was only one bed so we slept together, nothing strange just a two guys who are best friends.. but in the middle of night i felt him moving closer and cloer bit by bit, trying to cuddle with me.. i was so shocked cause i never thought that he is into men.. i thought he is just depressed and he needed someone to give him love and lift him up a bit so i was pretending that im asleep.. but later he didn;t stop.. he was literally breathing to my face, his leg were over mine and we were very intimate.. that's when i decided to talk to him and hug him.. it was very special night.. i decided to just kiss him and see where it will all go.. he kissed me back and i could literally die.. omg i'm so weak on words.. i wanna say so much but i'm still trying to make is short so i don't get ban or something.. let me fast forward.. we created such an amazing long distance relationship.. we fell in love with eachother, we were very intimate (sex and stuff) but above all, i loved him like i will never love anything or anyone.. he loved me too so much but he is different type of people and i get attached to people so easily.. nvm.. we were together 5 months and we broke up less than a month ago when he told me he is not sure he still feels the same about me, cause from time to time he sees me as a friend and it's so strange to him.. he is very strange about relationships cause he can never attach to someone to stay in relationship but i was special and he really loved me so i understand his feelings.. the whole point of me writing this is just to express my feelings somewhere.. i still love him so much even if im trying really hard to move on and continue being friends with him just like before we used to be, i'd be hurt if i knew he is talking and meeting other people now and he would feel the same, we talked about that.. i think.. that there is still something in him that wants to be more than friends with me and i have no ide what to do.. it's just so ****ing hard to stay friends with someone u loved more than anything u will ever love u don't have to read this i'm sorry.. but i just wanted to share something from my life that is so personal.. i tried to make is as short as possible and so sorry for my bad english grammar Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
August Blue 8,566 Posted March 26, 2017 Share Posted March 26, 2017 Hang on there Its such a cute story and I cant tell u "I know how u feel" but I can see that ur really in love! Just accept whatever his decision is and try to keep on understanding him and dont fight too much.. You may have a thousand thoughts going on through youre head rn , but time will solve everything and make things clear for both of you .. so just be patient and with feet on the ground! I wish you the best Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
inxcognito 222 Posted March 26, 2017 Author Share Posted March 26, 2017 5 minutes ago, August Blue said: Hang on there Its such a cute story and I cant tell u "I know how u feel" but I can see that ur really in love! Just accept whatever his decision is and try to keep on understanding him and dont fight too much.. You may have a thousand thoughts going on through youre head rn , but time will solve everything and make things clear for both of you .. so just be patient and with feet on the ground! I wish you the best thank you for kindness yeah of course i will respect whatever decision he makes.. even tho i feel sad and empty right now, i knwo that in future i will be just as fine as i was before, i know that.. i'm just thankfull to God that i still have him in my life, no matter how Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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