How Does One Recover?

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So it has now been a little over 2 weeks since I went to see the MAYHEM ball. The concert was on my birthday and I ended up being in the front row and much closer to the catwalk than I imagined I would be. I had seen the show in NYC from the back of the nosebleeds and countless videos so I knew what was coming, but once the show started I literally went into a stunned state for like the first 10 minutes. I just stood there in awe and almost like a sleeper agent being activated, I was jumping and dancing like I haven't for years. My best friend was right next to me, and some other friends of mine were also there but in other seats (although we all were getting drinks before and after the show lol). 

But one thing that is so weird in hindsight is that I oddly felt numb but in a good way the entire time. To better explain- I was beyond happy and entranced, but I didn't find myself crying during Hair or other moments in the show it would have been normal/other people were/parts I had before (fun fact- she also played hair on the NYC date and I saw the BTWB, so I have gotten to hear that song live 3 times now and it is better each time!). After the show, my friends and I went out drinking some more haha and while talking about the concert, I found I couldn't even speak much about it and was almost still in a state of shock. It has only been until recently I can watch videos my friends took and remember the moment of actually being at the concert and then I feel the emotions I feel like I should have been feeling when the show actually happened. 

I'm wondering if anyone has had a similar experience seeing Gaga and curious how you "recovered" from the show haha. The guy next to me was recording so much of the show and sent it to me which was so nice of him, and so I've just been going back and rewatching those videos when I feel empty or annoyed by anything. It was hands down one of the best experiences/nights of my life and I don't know how anything would top it unless I was front row again and got to interact with Gaga (She smiled/waved at my little birthday sign a couple times, but didn't make it all the way to me during VIY which was fine because I didn't really have anything prepared for that moment except to high five her or something haha)