Looking for a good interpretation of Coachella/MAYHEM Ball Tour

[Joshie S 6,009]

I want to write one as I always feel connected to Gaga and the story and message she's trying to perform for us.

I just haven't had the time. Last Coachella in 2017 I wrote a very detailed, song by song analysis of the story she was trying to present us.

This one is a little more complex however it definitely is a continuation of BTWB and shows all aspects of her career, the good, and the bad.

[jillianwoj 184]

1 hour ago, Nessun Dorma said:

Jill, I can’t even imagine how life must have been difficult for you dealing with a chronic illness that causes so much pain. I hope you can feel my love and admiration from where you are. Is your fibromyalgia under control now? 

And wow thank you so much for taking your time to explain all this to me! I had already heard about “Saturn Return”, but I had no idea what it meant. It’s a very interesting POV. I must admit I am a skeptical person when it comes to astrology, although I try to be as open-minded as possible when it comes to other people’s spiritual beliefs. Ultimately, I will always respect and defend your right to believe what you want to believe. I think spirituality is one of the things that makes life bearable!

Now that I know a bit more about your life story, I can only reinforce my wishes from yesterday! May life be kind to your dreams and may your choices continue to favor the best version of yourself! May you always be surrounded by good people and may your days be filled with peace and joy! 

I'm literally crying. Happy tears!  Thank you so so so much.  You seem so awesome and I am so glad we "met" here.  Sorry to be self-indulgent, but true to my Aries form, let me elaborate a tiny bit more since it's basically almost Jillian Day lol...

My fibro is worse than ever and honestly I have a lot more going on with it.  Often fibro sufferers have comorbidities, but on top of having some of the typical ones (chronic fatigue, insomnia, etc.) I was born with an extremely rare neurological disorder called septo-optic dysplasia that has affected me since the day I popped out.  I fully believe in "just keep swimming," but like... sometimes your fins are so tired and you need a break, but there is no such thing when you are trapped inside yourself, lol.

No one in my life understands which is why I am very dubious to pursue new friendships and have let most of my former ones fall off.  I couldn't keep up anymore and when I stopped being able to be as much of a giver, I found out pretty quickly how many takers I was surrounded with.  Similarly to Gaga, I don't feel complete without my Michael, but in my case, I want it more in a platonic best friend than I do a love interest.  I've been with my guy for almost 14 yrs and while it's nowhere near perfect, it's not something I am realistically able to replace/improve considering the circumstances; hence why a meaningful friendship is the type of connection I really long for and desire.

Okay I'm off my soapbox.  Thanks for letting me vent.  I appreciate it more than you will know.  Nothing is worse than feeling invisible, and I really thank you for seeing me in this moment. 🥹 😘😘🥰🥰

PS - Of course we know what the subject matter of Til It Happens to You is about, but maybe next tile you listen to it, listen through the ears/context of it being about chronic illness.  It really works for that too.  Unfortunately I can relate to the song with both meanings, but the latter is what has rerouted my life so I personally consider it the more emotionally relevant/impactful lens through which I usually "see" the song.

Edited April 16 by jillianwoj

[Gagaism 11,435]

The way she kills one of herself (wearing the BR mv outfit reference in the PF chess) and then proceeds into a dead body in between skeletons (referring herself in BR after she kills the bad guy) on the side of his skeleton is just GENIUS! 

[Nessun Dorma 6,344]

9 hours ago, jillianwoj said:

I'm literally crying. Happy tears!  Thank you so so so much.  You seem so awesome and I am so glad we "met" here.  Sorry to be self-indulgent, but true to my Aries form, let me elaborate a tiny bit more since it's basically almost Jillian Day lol...

My fibro is worse than ever and honestly I have a lot more going on with it.  Often fibro sufferers have comorbidities, but on top of having some of the typical ones (chronic fatigue, insomnia, etc.) I was born with an extremely rare neurological disorder called septo-optic dysplasia that has affected me since the day I popped out.  I fully believe in "just keep swimming," but like... sometimes your fins are so tired and you need a break, but there is no such thing when you are trapped inside yourself, lol.

No one in my life understands which is why I am very dubious to pursue new friendships and have let most of my former ones fall off.  I couldn't keep up anymore and when I stopped being able to be as much of a giver, I found out pretty quickly how many takers I was surrounded with.  Similarly to Gaga, I don't feel complete without my Michael, but in my case, I want it more in a platonic best friend than I do a love interest.  I've been with my guy for almost 14 yrs and while it's nowhere near perfect, it's not something I am realistically able to replace/improve considering the circumstances; hence why a meaningful friendship is the type of connection I really long for and desire.

Okay I'm off my soapbox.  Thanks for letting me vent.  I appreciate it more than you will know.  Nothing is worse than feeling invisible, and I really thank you for seeing me in this moment. 🥹 😘😘🥰🥰

PS - Of course we know what the subject matter of Til It Happens to You is about, but maybe next tile you listen to it, listen through the ears/context of it being about chronic illness.  It really works for that too.  Unfortunately I can relate to the song with both meanings, but the latter is what has rerouted my life so I personally consider it the more emotionally relevant/impactful lens through which I usually "see" the song.

This is so sweet! You also seem to be an amazing person, with a rich life story background. I do not intend to romanticize pain in any way, but adversity can lead to valuable lessons and personal growth. It's always better to learn from love, but pain also makes us stronger. It makes us realize that we can endure more than we imagine. Sometimes we don't give ourselves enough credit, but when we think back on everything we've lived (and survived), we might even realize how wonderful we are.

I’m so sorry about your fibromyalgia getting worse. And I do understand the feeling of I-just-need-a-break-from-life. I hope you can soon find a point of balance and control over your illness, just like Gaga did. We know for a fact that there’s a real possibility of getting better. What I’m trying to say is there’s always hope on the horizon. Science is always evolving and medicine is improving. So keep swimming, some of your best days haven't even happened yet. 

I remember you once mentioned vision loss, I figure that’s the symptom of septo-optic dysplasia? I just listened to TIHTY from the chronic illness POV and it made me tear up. 'Til you're standing in my shoes, I don't wanna hear nothing from you. It really says it all. 

You already know the way to my direct messages, so whenever you need to vent you can lean on me. I see you 

[jillianwoj 184]

On 4/16/2025 at 7:43 AM, Nessun Dorma said:

This is so sweet! You also seem to be an amazing person, with a rich life story background. I do not intend to romanticize pain in any way, but adversity can lead to valuable lessons and personal growth. It's always better to learn from love, but pain also makes us stronger. It makes us realize that we can endure more than we imagine. Sometimes we don't give ourselves enough credit, but when we think back on everything we've lived (and survived), we might even realize how wonderful we are.

I’m so sorry about your fibromyalgia getting worse. And I do understand the feeling of I-just-need-a-break-from-life. I hope you can soon find a point of balance and control over your illness, just like Gaga did. We know for a fact that there’s a real possibility of getting better. What I’m trying to say is there’s always hope on the horizon. Science is always evolving and medicine is improving. So keep swimming, some of your best days haven't even happened yet. 

I remember you once mentioned vision loss, I figure that’s the symptom of septo-optic dysplasia? I just listened to TIHTY from the chronic illness POV and it made me tear up. 'Til you're standing in my shoes, I don't wanna hear nothing from you. It really says it all. 

You already know the way to my direct messages, so whenever you need to vent you can lean on me. I see you 

awww i didnt mean for it to make you cry, but am so impressed at you immediately running to listen to it with a different hat on, so to speak.  you are right and i will never stop swimming!!! 😊  thanks for being a one-in-a-million kind of person!  yes resistance/adversity definitely leads to personal growth and valuable wisdom, for which i am grateful but all filled up for now lol.  yes, the vision loss is related to the SOD... basically it affects the few who have it slightly differently but it includes having underdeveloped optic nerves, pituitary/hormonal issues, often learning disabilities (thank god not for me), midline brain abnormalities (i'm missing the part that basically allows the hemispheres to communicate), and is often linked to autism (i suspect this for myself but have not been diagnosed).  i still have one good eye so it's okay that one doesn't work; better than an organ that doesn't come in pairs.  my brand of fibro is deemed to be from the brain irregularities + ptsd from a colorful childhood/life, but no one knows about any of these things truly.  it's okay!!!   radical acceptance is the answer! lol

 

thank you for seeing me and being so kind and loving!

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