ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 https://fanlink.to/AOBH Chv.volk on IG Putting myself out there like this is completely out of my comfort zone. Where I was a year ago triggered me into a depressive spiral. Exhausted of holding it together. I secretly started doing therapy last December & this time I wanted to properly face all my demons/triggers. After therapy I would write down what I was too afraid to say. How I was feeling. Poems to distract from cutting. My friend kept encouraging me to tell the world what I have to say. He made it his goal to get me to heal through music. We brainstormed ideas, went through my therapy notes & somehow ended up with a song [Body Bag]. If I'm being honest, this was all very hard. I felt weak. I panicked. Made excuses. Gave up. Got choked up, but after a few months, I felt ok. I'm 100% not a singer. But this was healing me. I was letting go of every person that took advantage of me. That mentally, sexually & physically hurt me. Letting go of years battling anxiety, drug use & self harm. Negative coping mechanisms that I taught myself. Of feeling worthless & disrespected. I refuse to continue to be a victim to myself & others. Everything I've ever felt, I left it all on this record. I have a little bit more respect for myself, little more self worth. This is a journey into my mind, how I processed pain while dealing with my mental health. Scrambling for temporary band aids. How I blamed myself for everything that ever happened. I can't lie and say I'm absolutely healed. I'm not. This isn't some "made it out the tunnel" kind of record. I'm still digging. I get tired. I breakdown. But this record is my flashlight & it's helping me get to a better place. It's also a reminder of a state of mind I never want to be in again. No more feeling alone, hopeless, insignificant, not in control of my body, ect. Working on the album for almost a year has pushed me to discover hope and to whoever listens & is going through a tough time, I wish that you too can heal from whatever has been holding you back. Reach out to others when you feel like you might relapse/hurt yourself/thoughts get overwhelming. Bad behaviors/negative coping mechanisms from years of pain can be unlearned. Take care of yourself. Thank you for listening Can't believe this all started from here Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Oriane 21,140 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 I'm saving it, and will listen to it later today! The only GGD member who can read / Credits to Celloo Deng for the profile pic! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Author Share Posted November 19, 2021 44 minutes ago, Oriane said: I'm saving it, and will listen to it later today! Thank you!!! It means so much to me! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MonsterPug 494 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 I find it to be so beautiful and impactful how you got all the pain and all of the work you did in therapy and transformed it into music. I’m half way listening to it and I love it. Thank you for sharing. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Author Share Posted November 19, 2021 1 hour ago, MonsterPug said: I find it to be so beautiful and impactful how you got all the pain and all of the work you did in therapy and transformed it into music. I’m half way listening to it and I love it. Thank you for sharing. Wow thank you for listening! It really does mean a lot to me. I've been working on this since this And I've come such a long way from it. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Babylon Dynasty 1,806 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 Congrats!! Strike a pose ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍💖 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hey Boy 1,067 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 It's such a solid body of work The lyrics are very mature. For sure it must have been tough for you to write it. The production is creative and surprising. Also it sounds very polished. My personal favorite is Mercury but every song sound solid. Congrats Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Oriane 21,140 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 8 hours ago, ChavaWM said: Thank you!!! It means so much to me! I've just listened to it, it's great! Very dark. I think my favorite is Slaughterhouse. The only GGD member who can read / Credits to Celloo Deng for the profile pic! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MonsterPug 494 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 7 hours ago, ChavaWM said: Wow thank you for listening! It really does mean a lot to me. I've been working on this since this And I've come such a long way from it. I just read your story. You’re a diamond. You deserve someone who loves you and is proud of you. I hope this album helped you heal. I hope you know Your worth worth now. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
GAYHEMikey 8,119 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 I am LIVING for these dark sounds!!! NO DUCT TAPE - NO MISSON Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alwyn 38 Posted November 19, 2021 Share Posted November 19, 2021 Loving the vibe🔥😍 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Author Share Posted November 19, 2021 8 hours ago, Babylon Dynasty said: Congrats!! Thank you so much <3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Author Share Posted November 19, 2021 7 hours ago, Hey Boy said: It's such a solid body of work The lyrics are very mature. For sure it must have been tough for you to write it. The production is creative and surprising. Also it sounds very polished. My personal favorite is Mercury but every song sound solid. Congrats Thank you so much for taking the time to listen! Mercury was one of the very first tracks we worked on! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Author Share Posted November 19, 2021 2 hours ago, Oriane said: I've just listened to it, it's great! Very dark. I think my favorite is Slaughterhouse. Slaughterhouse is the LAST song we finished and my absolute favorite too. The bridge came much later and it blew my mind when we added it in. Thank you!! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChvVolk 2,356 Posted November 19, 2021 Author Share Posted November 19, 2021 1 hour ago, MonsterPug said: I just read your story. You’re a diamond. You deserve someone who loves you and is proud of you. I hope this album helped you heal. I hope you know Your worth worth now. You have no idea how just being told that I'm actually worth something, goes a long way. Thank you for your kindness. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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