My new album - Debut Heartbreak Record - out now!

[StrawberryBlond 14,872]

My album is finally here and thank you to those who said they'd listen. I announced the album details little over a week ago and I'm pleased I got everything to come together to release it as planned. I started work on this album in September and I officially completed it a few days ago (quarantine really give me the drive I needed to complete the last three quarters). So, just over 7 months of work isn't half bad for a debut. As I've stated in a previous thread, this is all going to be written lyrics as I'm not a producer and I don't record my own videos, I just write songs. I've based it off the instrumental of a famous artist's song and put my own lyrics to them, copying the same rise and fall and overall structure and style. Also, every song will match the subject discussed in the song I'm basing it off of. So, listening to every song before my lyrics will whet your appetite. And it also means every song means something personal to me and these songs have helped me get through the period in my life concerning what this album's about. So, I hope you're up for reading lyrics and I hope I don't get sued by any artists! I'm not putting out these songs officially, songwriting is just something I do as a hobby and I don't own the rights to any of the songs that I'm basing my work off of.

Here's a shout-out to all the people I tagged previously plus some new ones because I noticed they liked an artists whose song I featured here:

@ProjectJoanne @Regina George @Economy @Oriane @Cuchulainn @Guillaume Hamon @Mikolaj @Franch Toast @zebrastripes @Harry @rumours @Jase

@SamanthaC @Morphine Prince @xoxo Craig @ANTI WP @KanyeWest @billygrey @Loyalty @Chic @RAMROD @Bad Kids @LGs LM @ShayCristoforo

@Defmix100 @pink sushi @Venus Rose

 

So, here's how it works. Every song will work to the same beat as the song I provide by an existing artist. Listen to the song first if you haven't already to get the subject and the beat. If you want, look up an instrumental for the song on YouTube and follow my lyrics along to the tune, all instrumentals are available on the site. I've made sure it follows all the same rise and fall. I'll know the right speed that I'm saying the lyrics but you'll pick up on it, I'm sure. It took a lot of fine tuning to get the timing right but I think I've done it. All these songs are about the rise and fall of my relationship with a GGD member, whose name I will not say. All you need to know is that I'm a woman and he's a man. The whole album flows in chronological order. Sit back and enjoy my first ever album!

DEBUT HEARTBREAK RECORD

1. Set Me Free

2. Reliable

3. Solace In You

4. Hanging By A Thread

5. Darling Angel

6. Alone

7. More Than This

8. I'll Still Love You

9. Your Intention

10. It's The Hope That Kills You

11. One Of Those Girls

12. Self- Reflection

13. Looking For A Man

 

1. Set Me Free

Spoiler

This track is about when I was in the first flush of excitement with this guy. We had planned to meet up and have some first time intimacy in a hotel room. See, he's much more experienced and I'm a virgin. At the time, I hadn't even had my first kiss. And honestly, as surprising as it is, it was all my idea. Suffice to say I really changed my initial plans to wait for a proper boyfriend. I approached all this from a friends with benefits angle. We had so much anticipation for this moment and this is all about the exciting times I felt in the run-up to this moment, imagining everything it would be:

Set Me Free

Always on my own
Will I be like this forever?
You've done this before
Do you think you can deliver?

You got experience I crave
You got confidence I need
You got defiance I want
Can you give it all to me?

You gotta set me free, make me feel like a grown woman
You gotta set me free, make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive
You gotta set me free, give me a night to dream about
You gotta set me free, make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive

Got it all planned inside my head
Both of us entwined on a hotel bed
Don't catch feelings, feelings, we can still be friends
This is purely physical

You got experience I crave
You got confidence I need
You got defiance I want
Can you give it all to me?

You gotta set me free, make me feel like a grown woman
You gotta set me free, make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive
You gotta set me free, give me a night to dream about
You gotta set me free, make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive

You got experience I crave
You got confidence I need
Do you think you can deliver?

You gotta set me free, make me feel like a grown woman
You gotta set me free, make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah) make me feel alive
You gotta set me free, give me a night to dream about
You gotta set me free, make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive
Make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive
Make me feel free (ah), make me feel wild (ah), make me feel alive

(end of song instrumental fade-out)

 

2. Reliable

Spoiler

This track is about the disappointment that was our eventual meeting. You see, he kept on having to call off planned meetings for health reasons, so this was the closest we ever came to achieving what we set out to do. We'd planned to go to restaurant first and I waited and waited outside there for the longest time and I eventually got a text saying he had to go back into hospital for health reasons. And honestly, I didn't even know whether to believe him at this point or if he was just stringing me along. I went home in tears and he later apologised for it all. This song was going round in my head the whole time as it hadn't long been released, so here's my take on it:

Reliable

I'm not asking for much or exclusivity
I just want you to keep your word
Our relationship may not be viable
But I just want you to be reliable, reliable

Why did you fail to show up, why is there always an excuse?
Why do I get foiled at every turn?
Are you honest when you cancel, thought I could wait it out but I can't
After all this time, I feel hesitant

If the timing's not right, we can just try again
Instead of apologising and making amends
But I need you now...so

I'm not asking for much or exclusivity
I just want you to keep your word
Our relationship may not be viable
But I just want you to be reliable, reliable

You're experienced, I'm not, never done this before
If anything, I thought it would make you want it more
Am I too innocent for you, afraid of making me impure
If anything, I thought it would add some allure

If the timing's not right, we can just try again
Instead of apologising and making amends
But I need you now...so

I'm not asking for much or exclusivity
I just want you to keep your word
Our relationship may not be viable
But I just want you to be reliable, reliable

I'm still waiting here fore you, you know I'll always be right here
Just return the favour and be reliable

 

3. Solace In You

Spoiler

This track was based around our making-up period. We decided to take a break from trying to meet and just focus on building up our friendship over the phone and plan things more organically. We developed a real love for each other over the summer through this and it warmed my heart to finally have a close friend as I really don't have any of them any more. We finally met up just after ASIB came out and he gave me my first kiss in the back row of the cinema (I even talked about that on GGD!) We planned to just see the movie that day, nothing else. In hindsight, I wish we'd gone ahead with the hotel idea as well, but yeah. At least we met at long last. So, this is all about the story of us. When I heard this song, I thought it described us very well, so I made the lyrics even more exclusive. It's meant to be a duet but i of course made it solo. This one really brought a tear to my eye knowing what was coming next:

Solace In You

I'm emotional, I'm a bit too much
I'm accepting but still like to judge
I'm self-obsessed and empathic, confident and pathetic
I'm such a muddled wreck
You're reckless but with a heart of gold
You're attentive and suddenly cold
You're serious and humorous, cautious and careless
You're such a complex soul

We have good points and bad points, sometimes we feel pointless
What a messed-up pair we are
We have good points and bad points, sometimes we feel pointless
But together, we might have a point

These days, I'm starting to feel brand new
And no one can truly get me like you do
I confess, I've found solace in you

I'm selfish and self-critical
I'm cynical and still gullible
You talk for too long about your problems, hours at a time
But you always find time for mine

We have good points and bad points, sometimes we feel pointless
What a messed-up pair we are
We have good points and bad points, opposites attract and we're the proof
Maybe fate wanted us to meet

These days, I'm starting to feel brand new
And no one can truly get me like you do
I confess, I've found solace in you
These days, I'm starting to feel brand new
And no one can truly get me like you do
I confess, I've found solace in you
I confess, I've found solace in you
I confess, I've found solace in you

 

4. Hanging By A Thread

Spoiler

This track is about how I felt our plans were drifting further apart again and he was having personal issues. I was wondering when was the next time we'd ever meet and was left in that "will we, won't we" period of worrying. Not much to say, but, guess which tune I picked for this one?

Hanging By A Thread

This entire situation's got me worried right now
All this time, I hoped that it would work out somehow
But I'm having so many doubts, have so many doubts, have so many doubts, too many doubts
It's hard to make plans when they could go awry
Got the feeling afterwards, we'd just be saying goodbye
But I'm having so many doubts, have so many doubts, have so many doubts, too many doubts

I love you so bad, but you make me so frustrated
Why do all our plans always have to be so belated?
This whole thing is starting to fill me with dread
But still you keep me hanging by a thread

Sick of optimism, I'm a realist at heart
Every disappointment just tears my hope apart
But I'm having so many doubts, have so many doubts, have so many doubts, too many doubts
Sometimes I wonder if you're even truthful
A big fear of mine is to look like a fool
But I'm having so many doubts, have so many doubts, have so many doubts, too many doubts

I love you so bad, but you make me so frustrated
Why do all our plans always have to be so belated?
This whole thing is starting to fill me with dread
But still you keep me hanging by a thread

I'm still holding out, holding out
I'm still holding onto hope, onto hope
I'm always so near and yet still so far
Tell me can you change that, change that, change that, change that, change that, change that, change that

I love you so bad but you make me so frustrated
Why do all our plans always have to be so belated?
This whole thing is starting to fill me with dread
Promise me you'll make it all better, better
Maybe we can both be better, better
Just don't keep me hanging one more...day

 

5. Darling Angel

Spoiler

This song is all about the phone call he made to me one day to say that he had something to tell me: he didn't think he could go ahead with the intimacy thing after all. He still wanted to be friends but no to the benefits. I was heartbroken. I pleaded with him to change his mind. I'm quite embarrassed at how pathetic it was, actually. I wept so hard that night. Just when I feel I'm close to something I want, it disappears. And this was the song that was playing in the background when he called me, so I couldn't think of anything more apt to put it with. In this case, his term of endearment for me was "darling angel." Again, another duet that I made solo:

Darling Angel

You always said I was your darling angel, even though you sometimes put me through hell
I just take you back every time, you're worth all my time
Ooh, you put me through hell, ooh, I love you to hell and back

Falling for you, like being swept up in a hurricane
You changed my outlook, now I'll never be the same, no no no
Never thought you'd let me go go go go, no
Midnight flirtation, you knew just the things to say to make me feel good
You were there when I felt so low, low, low, low
I relied on you more, more, more, more

You always said I was your darling angel, even though you sometimes put me through hell
I just take you back every time, you're worth all my time
Ooh, you put me through hell
But you always said I was your darling angel, even though we put each other through hell
We just need each other so much, I love you so much
Ooh, you put me through hell, ooh, I love you to hell and back

Offered my body, you seemed happy at the time
Feelings seemed mutual, now I see the suggestion was all mine, ay ay ay
Spent many nights picturing this hotel scene, oh
Close body contact, feel skin on skin
Never done this before, feel original sin

You always said I was your darling angel, even though you sometimes put me through hell
I just take you back every time, you're worth all my time
Ooh, you put me through hell
But you always said I was your darling angel, even though we put each other through hell
We just need each other so much, I love you so much
Ooh, you put me through hell, ooh, I love you to hell and back

Your change of heart has put me through hell
I love you even though you put me through hell
I'll still love you to hell and back, and back, and back, and back and back
And back (I still love you to hell)
And back
Ooh, you put me through hell, ooh, I love you to hell and back

 

6. Alone

Spoiler

This track is by far my most powerful one. This is the moment that it all fell apart. Despite me wanting to still be friends with him and wanting to get along, little over a month later, out the blue, he sent me a text saying he valued our friendship but felt it had all got too much and had run its course. I tried to phone him but I think he blocked my number. He didn't respond on GGD. That was in September and he still hasn't contacted me to this day. It's this moment that made me decide to write this whole album. And the devastation caused me to think of just one song and here it is. It also involved me singing in a different way and very fast:

Alone

You left a text, you couldn't even phone
How could you leave me like this, alone?

Came into my life like a hurricane
And yet you somehow made me feel sane, crazy
I made you feel better, though
You said it in your own handwritten songs, I know
Should've seen the signs in May
When you stopped saying that you loved me, so sad
It was such a bitter pill
Oh, damn, you've helped turn this good girl, so bad
This was all my idea
Maybe you backed down out of fear, damn you
We could drive each other mad
But you still treasured everything we had, me too
Please don't leave me behind
With feelings of regret, regret

You left a text, you couldn't even phone
How could you leave me like this, alone?
You just disappeared into the ether
You left a text, you couldn't even phone

Did you plan all of this?
Were you trying to let me down gently, please no
All the plans we could've done
Some of those plans were even yours, no way
My heart bears the strain
Your words, they hit me to the core, core, core, core, core, core, core, core

You left a text, you couldn't even phone
How could you leave me like this, alone?
You just disappeared into the ether
You left a text, you couldn't even phone

No matter how bad, I always helped you through
Did I really mean so little to you?
But you said I even helped turn your sky blue
How could, how could, you leave me?

You left a text, you couldn't even phone
How could you leave me like this, alone?
You just disappeared into the ether
You left a text, you couldn't even phone

You left a text, you couldn't even phone
How could you leave me like this, alone?

 

7. More Than This

Spoiler

This track is all about me dealing with sadness of this whole thing. He left so many questions I had unanswered and I don't think his text was detailed enough. Plus, there were so many things that angered me in the way he went about it. Not much more to say. I know this artist is kinda controversial here but this was too personal not to base one of my heartbreak songs on:

More Than This

Now, the night stretches out so long
Without your voice here to be my song
I'm left asking what all this means, I go to work in a daze
Wondering if this is all just a phase
And you knew and you knew, you totally knew
That I'd react like this, that it would knock me to the floor
And you knew, you totally knew
Still I stay, still I stay, like a fool
But I'll always be lovesick for you

You owe me more than this
Your timing, once so good but now so bad
You took a time of joy and made it sad (you owe me more)
The cowardice, to break, the news in written word
You once told me you'd never be a coward (you owe me more)
The restriction, why can't I call you once or twice?
Surely once or twice a month would suffice?
You owe me more than this, you owe me more than this, you owe me more than this

Love? Was our love just in my head?
Took the hint when you refused to share your bed
Tell me, if you value our friendship
Why would you try to make me feel like s**t?

You owe me more than this
Your timing, once so good but now so bad
You took a time of joy and made it sad (you owe me more)
The cowardice, to break, the news in written word
You once told me you'd never be a coward (you owe me more)
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this, you owe me more than this, you owe me more than this

And you knew and you knew, you totally knew
That I'd react like this, that it would knock me to the floor
And you knew, you totally knew
Still I stay, still I stay, like a fool
But I'll always be lovesick for you

You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more than this
You owe me more

 

8. I'll Still Love You

Spoiler

This track is self-explanatory. No matter what he put me through, I still want to be his friend, I still ache to hear him speak again. I wanted to cry so many times singing this. True wallowing in self-pity, but it needed to be done:

I'll Still Love You

I'm still waiting, though you don't wait for me
You don't respond, but for me it's like free therapy
I replay, our heart to hearts, our ups and downs
We fell right back, time after time
No matter what, I'm loyal to a fault...so

Oh, I'll still love you
Though you chose to leave me here on my own
It hurts to remember, but the memories stay alive
Oh, I'll still love you
Even when you don't want to talk to me now
I live in hope that you'll change your heart somehow

I'm still waiting, though you don't wait for me
All the secrets that we shared, will you still keep them?
I still, send messages and quick updates, I live in hope
You watch from afar
No matter what, I'm loyal to a fault...so

Oh, I'll still love you
Though you chose to leave me here on my own
It hurts to remember, but the memories stay alive
Oh, I'll still love you
Even when you don't want to talk to me now
I live in hope that you'll change your heart somehow

I'll still love and forgive you completely
I'm still waiting though you don't wait for me

I replay our heart to hearts, our ups and downs
We fell right back, time after time
No matter what I'm loyal to a fault...so

Oh, I'll still love you
Though you chose to leave me here on my own
It hurts to remember, but the memories stay alive
Oh, I'll still love you
Even when you don't want to talk to me now
I live in hope that you'll change your heart somehow

I'll still love you

 

9. Your Intention

Spoiler

This song is all about my further delve into sadness and working out what his reasoning for breaking things off was honest. To base it off this song is a big deal as we're both Scottish and we talked about this song so much when it became a bit hit. I've really bonded with it since the break up. It feels odd to sing such a masculine tune but I think I made this one heartfelt:

Your Intention

Depression's taking hold and you're no longer here to heal me
Back and forth empathising's the thing that kept me happy completely
I have my life to share, stories to tell, things to say, just to tell you I'm well
It's hard to express what I'm trying to say
Of course I miss the one who helped me get through the day

But you had to do what you thought was right
Even though you said you'd call tomorrow night
I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention

I admit that it was nice to feel like a guy really liked me
But this long distance had a risk of ending inevitably
I try to make new friends, find a new job, new distractions, just to kill some time
It's hard to express what I'm trying to say
Of course I miss the one who helped me feel part of the world

But you had to do what you thought was right
Even though you said you'd call tomorrow night
I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention

I thought you'd always be here
Thought we'd bonded for life
And I can't get over the pain
Yet I still don't regret a single thing

But you had to do what you thought was right
Even though you said you'd call tomorrow night
I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention
But you had to do what you thought was right
Even though you said you'd call tomorrow night
I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention

I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention

 

10. It's The Hope That Kills You

Spoiler

This is my first song of self-realisation. I'm still sad but I'm trying to be more realistic and tougher on myself. This title is a common Scottish expression, in case you're wondering! This track was originally going to be based on Don't Bother but I ultimately didn't think the lyrics suited my situation. This one fitted it to a tee. And Shakira was one of his favourite artists, so...

It's The Hope That Kills You

How am I still so hung up on you?
I'm such a mess
Still so wanting, still so needing
You may be getting by just fine
But I'm still left here asking why
And wondering if the fault is all mine

I thought you'd stay, I thought you'd stay
I always did for you
Why can't you pay it back for me?

I feel like a fool for thinking you'd ever come back
I'd always listen to all your woes
Doing it for me, you just saw as a chore
I feel like a fool for thinking you'd ever come back
Never raise your hopes too high, cos it's the hope that kills you every time

You broke it off for your own sanity
You act like I never tried to keep you grounded
What is it with men?
You're still online but still so silent
I realise I may never hear your voice again

Now I see, now I see
That I was never meant to convince you
You'd go your own way without me

I feel like a fool for thinking you'd ever come back
I'd always listen to all your woes
Doing it for me, you just saw as a chore
I feel like a fool for thinking you'd ever come back
Never raise your hopes too high, cos it's the hope that kills you every time

(guitar solo)

I feel like a fool for thinking you'd ever come back
I'd always listen to all your woes
Doing it for me, you just saw as a chore
I feel like a fool for thinking you'd ever come back
Never raise your hopes too high, cos it's the hope that kills you every time

Every time, every time
It's the hope that kills you every time
Every time, every time
It's the hope that kills you every time

 

11. One Of Those Girls

Spoiler

This track is the start of my internal questions about myself and asking why things never work out for me. This track was originally never going to be here until I stumbled across this song and remembered how this is basically my theme song and by far the most personal one here for me so I couldn't not put it in. Just as well I remembered as this was quite the experience to write. Tears were shed:

One Of Those Girls

Another man left me, why am I surprised?
Says I'm a good person, values our friendship but this is too intense
Claims there's no peace of mind
I pretend like nothing's wrong, try to resume what I was doing before, put on a brave public face
I wanna tell someone, so this is killing me
So I retreat to my bed, curl up in a ball, cry my eyes out till I fall asleep
And wonder why everyone leaves when I do nothing wrong and what is wrong with me

Thing is, I don't appeal to everyone
I'm one of those girls
I don't appeal to everyone
I'm kept as a friend, or they ghost me, I know the score
I'm one of those girls
The truth is such a bitter pill
I'm just one of those girls, one of...those girls

I've always been invisible, but still visible, meaning so many people just pass me by
I don't know how to pull them in
I'm not the type of girl you sleep with but don't marry, I'm the kinda type of girl that you don't even see!
Is the problem you or me?

Thing is, I don't appeal to everyone
I'm one of those girls
I don't appeal to everyone
I'm kept as a friend, or they ghost me, I know the score
I'm one of those girls
The truth is such a bitter pill
I'm just one of those girls, one of...those girls

Am I doomed to this cycle forevermore?
Am I going to be on my own forevermore?

 

12. Self-Reflection

Spoiler

As the title suggests, this is me trying to come to terms with everything that's happened and the way I deal with things. It's my big try at giving myself a tough pep talk and trying to move on. And Marina was his favourite artist before Gaga came along, so:

Self-Reflection

I'm feeling disappointment once again
I've lost nearly all of my friends
When will my life truly begin?
And I stop feeling this eternal longing?
Maybe I need, to look over my defeats
And notice that I tend to retreat
I want to break my pattern of losing
Making the first move is the only solution

I have to be brave
There is no choice that is completely safe
Just ride this wave
To prove you're brave
I need to take this self-reflection
If I want that true affection
I need to take a new direction
With this self-reflection

Always been the type to be stuck in my ways
Never liked doing what someone else says
I just wrote an album about one man
I guess stranger things could happen

I have to be brave
There is no choice that is completely safe
Just ride this wave
To prove you're brave...you're brave
I need to take this self-reflection
If I want that true affection
I need to take a new direction
With this self-reflection

I know I'll find my way, I'll be there one day
I can get what I need, baby, come what may

I need to take this self-reflection
If I want that true affection
I need to take a new direction
With this self-reflection

I don't want my heart to go to waste
I want to hear 'I love you' to my face
I want to feel love's true embrace
Love's true embrace

I'll find my way
I'll be there one day
I'll find my way
I'll be there one day

(instrumental fade out)

 

13. Looking For A Man

Spoiler

This is the final song. It's ironically, the first one I ever wrote. Lana's album had not long come out and I wanted to write a song based on something from it. I was originally thinking of Happiness Is A Butterfly because that really fit my situation but I felt it was too long and involved. This one summed everything up in a different way and in my mind, provides the perfect end to this whole thing. It had another title originally but I thought it sounded too negative for the final song, so this is it:

Looking For A Man

I make acquaintance with a man or two, they make promises but don't follow through
I meet them every so often, have heart to hearts and then move on, brief happiness then it's gone
We never become more than friends, they just take this heart of mine and keep it on the sideline
Looking for a man who won't let me down, looking for a man who won't let me down

From school to online to student bars, men follow me, but not permanently
They dip in and out for a short while, and then they're gone, like the night to dawn, not always deliberate but still leaves an impression
They don't look back but I wait in vain, I just find a new romance and repeat this same old dance
Looking for a man who won't let me down, looking for a man who won't let me down

(instrumental)

Maybe one day I'll start anew, even if it takes more than a try or two
I know I'm not getting any younger, but age ain't nothing but a number
I'll just have to improve with time and let my true worth shine
I know I'll find him one day
He's out there...somewhere

 

 

So, there it is. Please tell me what were your favourite tracks and/or lines. As I've said, I just do this for fun, I have no plans to actually formally release this stuff, considering, above all else, the tunes they're based on are copyrighted (buy these songs by all these great artists, by the way!). I don't own any of these songs quoted, just my own lyrics underneath, which were written entirely by myself. This was my form of therapy to write this and I hope everyone else found some joy in it. Tell me what you think!

And if this guy is reading this, he knows who he is. And I'm still here.

 

[LOVEDRUG 10,686]

these lyrics are awesome! you're a great writer

[Gracious Gaga 17,163]

this is such a cool concept!!! do you sing?? you should, for your next album maybe, start recording and putting together some original beats  

[ShayCristoforo 10,607]

I'm emotional, I'm a bit too much
I'm accepting but still like to judge
I'm self-obsessed and empathic, confident and pathetic
I'm such a muddled wreck
You're reckless but with a heart of gold
You're attentive and suddenly cold
You're serious and humorous, cautious and careless
You're such a complex soul

DAMNNNNNNN. mic drop.
And I also love Self-Reflection too. It's such an important message. 

Thanks for tagging me, and sharing this with everyone  You're a clever and skillful, yet honest and raw writer. I imagine this is such a milestone; creating a catalog of your experiences in this way. I know it always is for me.

Hope you're proud of this  You should be very proud  

[littlepotter 75,147]

41 minutes ago, StrawberryBlond said:

Hanging By A Thread

The first song I ever wrote when I was 13 was called Hanging By A Thread

Congrats!

[Oriane 21,115]

I've just finished listening to everything ! I love it !

I could relate to some of the songs/lyrics in a different way, it brought some tears to my eyes, especially in the last songs. One of those girls and Looking for a man really hit me.

Some lines I like :

"We have good points and bad points, sometimes we feel pointless"

"I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention"

"I don't want my heart to go to waste"

[Blastertoyo 22,728]

1 hour ago, littlepotter said:

The first song I ever wrote when I was 13 was called Hanging By A Thread

Congrats!

Queen of writing songs since you were 13

 

Gaga who 

[Guillaume Hamon 6,507]

Sorry but my internet is slow as hell, I'll come back to read the lyrics while listening to the music and get the full experience before to give my impression.

[StrawberryBlond 14,872]

Just updated it to fix the spelling errors and misplaced lyrics. Because I typed this all out in a format that didn't have the too big-big gap between lines that you get on GGD and my mouse was going a bit haywire, it took a while to transfer the lyrics over and sometimes I maybe missed a part or two. And if I copied and pasted something with an error, it got repeated without my realising. But it's all done now and more professional. And I even mis-spelled my own album name in the title, the shame! But it's all better now.

5 hours ago, Gracious Gaga said:

this is such a cool concept!!! do you sing?? you should, for your next album maybe, start recording and putting together some original beats  

I do sing but not professionally. I wanted to be a singer for years but as I got older, I realised that I didn't have the drive to succeed or the skills to write lyrics. So, singing has always just been something that I do for fun. I got into songwriting in 2017 but again, this is just something I do for my own sake and my own form of therapy. I don't need to make money off it or put anything down officially. If I can get praise for my lyrics alone, I'm more than happy with that. I'll say, for the record, that I think the Ariana track is a bit too high for my natural range but I so wanted to feature a song from her latest break up album as it felt symbolic and give the album a bit of modern flavour, so I went with this one.

5 hours ago, ShayCristoforo said:

I'm emotional, I'm a bit too much
I'm accepting but still like to judge
I'm self-obsessed and empathic, confident and pathetic
I'm such a muddled wreck
You're reckless but with a heart of gold
You're attentive and suddenly cold
You're serious and humorous, cautious and careless
You're such a complex soul

DAMNNNNNNN. mic drop.
And I also love Self-Reflection too. It's such an important message. 

Thanks for tagging me, and sharing this with everyone  You're a clever and skillful, yet honest and raw writer. I imagine this is such a milestone; creating a catalog of your experiences in this way. I know it always is for me.

Hope you're proud of this  You should be very proud  

Thanks so much, I was quite proud of how that verse turned out too. I was attempting to show that we both have contradictions in our personalities from one day to the next and can bring out the best and worst in each other. There was more than a hint of Always A Woman by Billy Joel inspiration there! This is truly high praise, I'm so grateful to see such wonderful responses.

3 hours ago, Oriane said:

I've just finished listening to everything ! I love it !

I could relate to some of the songs/lyrics in a different way, it brought some tears to my eyes, especially in the last songs. One of those girls and Looking for a man really hit me.

Some lines I like :

"We have good points and bad points, sometimes we feel pointless"

"I felt my heart break by the rejection
I pray to God that this wasn't your intention"

"I don't want my heart to go to waste"

Thanks so much! I'm glad to hear that all my feelings were conveyed very well and didn't feel shallow or too immature. Because it's my first time writing music for myself properly, I feared these lyrics would sound rather average or too naive. But to see these lines get praised is wonderful to see. I think I sound very world weary on a lot of them!

[Gracious Gaga 17,163]

@StrawberryBlond ah okay! I get that its nothing you're trying to pursue- however, could still be fun for you to experiment with taking it a step further and recording- again just for fun! just a thought! or you could write songs for other singers/recording artists! or collaborate with other songwriters to provide lyrical support.  you're just so good at it! you ought to share your talent:)

all that said- you definitely deserve to sit back and relax for now and be proud of this album you just put together! its great and a major accomplishment!  you did it gurl!!! <3 

[zebrastripes 969]

Nice work! Sorry things turned out this way, but also happy you found the avenue of writing it out.

Kinda takes me back to when I wrote lyrics and stories as a youngin' as well.

[Defmix100 6,392]

This is amazing! congratulations on finishing the album and so great to finally read your lyrics! I'll pm you

[Franch Toast 26,886]

I really enjoyed reading these, thanks for sharing! That's amazing that you were able to channel your hurt into something constructive and therapeutic. I second the idea that you could really look into songwriting as more than a hobby. You're very talented. My favorite lyrics were the same as @ShayCristoforo! I also really liked "It's the Hope that Kills You" and "Alone," but they're all great. 

And I'm sorry for the crappy experience you had with that person. That's rough. 

[StrawberryBlond 14,872]

On 5/9/2020 at 1:59 AM, zebrastripes said:

Nice work! Sorry things turned out this way, but also happy you found the avenue of writing it out.

Kinda takes me back to when I wrote lyrics and stories as a youngin' as well.

A youngin? I'm 30! Maybe it's because I'm talking about firsts and being so inexperienced so some people think I'm younger, but yeah. I didn't have my first kiss until I was 28!

21 hours ago, Franch Toast said:

I really enjoyed reading these, thanks for sharing! That's amazing that you were able to channel your hurt into something constructive and therapeutic. I second the idea that you could really look into songwriting as more than a hobby. You're very talented. My favorite lyrics were the same as @ShayCristoforo! I also really liked "It's the Hope that Kills You" and "Alone," but they're all great. 

And I'm sorry for the crappy experience you had with that person. That's rough. 

I'm glad that you picked up on those two songs as well, I was so pleased with how they turned out, considering how difficult it was at times. Alone was basically as close to rapping without actually being it, so it was a very different thing to write and I tried to do some clever turn with phrase like "you helped turn this good girl, so bad."

Thanks for the support. If I didn't have the songwriting, I wouldn't have anything to get my feelings out in an efficient way, so this really helped. It's weird to think he's around and may have read this. But whether he does or not, I'm happy at the amazing reception I've had from you lot already.

[Glamourpuss 29,062]

Wow you're an excellent lyric writer. You've put more heart and soul into your words than most mainstream artists would. This is real poetry. I feel like I can actually relate to alot of the words because I'm a person who feels things deeply like you do. 

Thanks for sharing this with us.