MadeToBAMonster 73 Posted August 7, 2017 Share Posted August 7, 2017 Warning - This post does address suicidal thoughts, please read with caution. It’s hard to explain love in any form, even the love from fan to artist but I’m going to try. Lady Gaga to me and so many others, more than just a singer. She’s a symbol of love, hope, peace, she’s a reminder of the power inside us all to make the world a better and warmer place. Gaga represents that piece of our soul that’s tormented and twisted, the piece that longs to break away and help us spread our wings and find our own potential. Gaga is our strength within the worst situations…to the person who hides their sexual orientation because of society or family. The person who can’t be themselves so they consume their minds with the hate that surrounds them. Gaga is the one that says it’s okay, speak. Be you because I love you. Gaga is the hope in the one’s that are tormented. The bullied children, the lost kids looking for a home, the outcast of society who are just trying to make it by. Gaga is the outstretched hand pulling them through the fog. For myself, Gaga was the voice of reason. I grew up with a disability that made me live life in a wheelchair and look different than others. I was bullied severely every day for reasons beyond my control, beaten up and emotionally drained of even a simple smile. I was lifeless by age 16. I wanted nothing and took no pleasure in anything. My parents felt of me as a burden, I had no friends, my childhood wonder was stripped from me. My disability caused me to be in and out of the hospital often with surgeries and emergencies galore…I ended up wishing the next hospital trip would be my last. I had planned my suicide by age 19. I was out of high school, alone, devoid of passion. I sat in my room on that cold Friday night and clutched the knife in my hand. As I shed what I thought was my final set of tears, the radio began playing Bad Romance. Her voice hit me and I stopped to listen. I had always loved music but something about this resonated with me. I can remember hearing each note and lyric and feeling a wave of comfort. Her poetic nature and haunting melodies filled me with such inspiration. I dropped the knife and let the tears consume me. After that I spent all night googling her and listening to her music. I found within her message of peace and love a true reason to go on. She made me see I had passions, that I wasn’t just a “cripple” and that my voice mattered. From that day on, I was changed. I followed her career and listened to it all. I tried with all my might to spread love, to be proud of myself, and I will never stop. I still don’t have many friends. People can be quite judgmental but my dream is to meet like minded Little Monsters and make lifelong friends. I hope Gaga reads my story some day or I can meet her but until then I’ll continue to be a warrior for peace. I don’t have much money, can’t afford CDs etc, but I give all I can back in many ways. We only get one life. Let’s make it count by enriching others around us and being what is true in this world. Love you all. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Talent 9,333 Posted August 7, 2017 Share Posted August 7, 2017 This was really beautiful. And don't worry, life does get better. Much love for you and a big, big hug. 🔵 - Banned because I quoted a stupid meme. Literally. So, yeah. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadeToBAMonster 73 Posted August 7, 2017 Author Share Posted August 7, 2017 Thank you so much, sincerely! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
babs 5,093 Posted August 7, 2017 Share Posted August 7, 2017 That was truly beautiful. I'm glad Gaga gave you not just comfort in idealizing a popstar, but confidence to find yourself. That's what it's all about. Depression and anxiety is an everyday struggle but if we can turn our pain into something else, that's where you find your true potential. You go!!! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chromatic 12,177 Posted August 7, 2017 Share Posted August 7, 2017 ''When you're lonely, I'll be lonely too.'' Remember that. No matter how lost, alone or sad you feel - remember there's people just like you. You are not alone, and you never will be. You're loved, and people care. I care. You just stay strong, and then you're on the right track. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadeToBAMonster 73 Posted August 7, 2017 Author Share Posted August 7, 2017 You’re all so kind, it was really hard for me to write that. It’s truly just a part of my long story among so many other great ones here. I can’t wait to know you all! Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadeToBAMonster 73 Posted August 7, 2017 Author Share Posted August 7, 2017 12 hours ago, Lucas said: ''When you're lonely, I'll be lonely too.'' Remember that. No matter how lost, alone or sad you feel - remember there's people just like you. You are not alone, and you never will be. You're loved, and people care. I care. You just stay strong, and then you're on the right track. You are a treasure. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
lordmaler 896 Posted August 7, 2017 Share Posted August 7, 2017 RedOne saving lives! On a serious note life is hard, some people are sh!t but there is no thing worth of your life. Remember that. If you need someone to talk to I am here. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadeToBAMonster 73 Posted August 7, 2017 Author Share Posted August 7, 2017 Just now, lordmaler said: On a serious note life is hard, some people are sh!t but there is no thing worth of your life. Remember that. If you need someone to talk to I am here. That means the world and I promise that goes both ways. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadeToBAMonster 73 Posted August 10, 2017 Author Share Posted August 10, 2017 I hope I make friends here, considering I was bullied at the artrave for my disabilities. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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