Miracle 14,068 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 and make you feel bad for punishing Gaga for not being extremely emotional in the backstage pics At Born This Way Foundation, we believe in telling your story – good or bad, challenging or triumphant. Deciding to speak openly can be hard, but it can also be a gateway to healing and a comfort to others who thought they were alone. There has been a tremendous response to our co-founder Lady Gaga’s brave admission that she has been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Below is an open letter she wrote sharing her story. We hope it will be an inspiration to others to do the same and to seek the help and support they need to recover. I have wrestled for some time about when, how and if I should reveal my diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). After five years of searching for the answers to my chronic pain and the change I have felt in my brain, I am finally well enough to tell you. There is a lot of shame attached to mental illness, but it’s important that you know that there is hope and a chance for recovery. It is a daily effort for me, even during this album cycle, to regulate my nervous system so that I don’t panic over circumstances that to many would seem like normal life situations. Examples are leaving the house or being touched by strangers who simply want to share their enthusiasm for my music. I also struggle with triggers from the memories I carry from my feelings of past years on tour when my needs and requests for balance were being ignored. I was overworked and not taken seriously when I shared my pain and concern that something was wrong. I ultimately ended up injured on the Born This Way Ball. That moment and the memory of it has changed my life forever. The experience of performing night after night in mental and physical pain ingrained in me a trauma that I relive when I see or hear things that remind me of those days. I also experience something called dissociation which means that my mind doesn’t want to relive the pain so “I look off and I stare” in a glazed over state. As my doctors have taught me, I cannot express my feelings because my pre-frontal cortex (the part of the brain that controls logical, orderly thought) is overridden by the amygdala (which stores emotional memory) and sends me into a fight or flight response. My body is in one place and my mind in another. It’s like the panic accelerator in my mind gets stuck and I am paralyzed with fear. When this happens I can’t talk. When this happens repeatedly, it makes me have a common PTSD reaction which is that I feel depressed and unable to function like I used to. It’s harder to do my job. It’s harder to do simple things like take a shower. Everything has become harder. Additionally, when I am unable to regulate my anxiety, it can result in somatization, which is pain in the body caused by an inability to express my emotional pain in words. But I am a strong and powerful woman who is aware of the love I have around me from my team, my family and friends, my doctors and from my incredible fans who I know will never give up on me. I will never give up on my dreams of art and music. I am continuing to learn how to transcend this because I know I can. If you relate to what I am sharing, please know that you can too. Traditionally, many associate PTSD as a condition faced by brave men and women that serve countries all over the world. While this is true, I seek to raise awareness that this mental illness affects all kinds of people, including our youth. I pledge not only to help our youth not feel ashamed of their own conditions, but also to lend support to those servicemen and women who suffer from PTSD. No one’s invisible pain should go unnoticed. I am doing various modalities of psychotherapy and am on medicine prescribed by my psychiatrist. However, I believe that the most inexpensive and perhaps the best medicine in the world is words. Kind words…positive words…words that help people who feel ashamed of an invisible illness to overcome their shame and feel free. This is how I and we can begin to heal. I am starting today, because secrets keep you sick. And I don’t want to keep this secret anymore. A note from my psychologist, drnancy; If you think you might have PTSD, please seek professional help. There is so much hope for recovery. Many people think that the event that stimulated PTSD needs to be the focus. Yet often, people will experience the same event and have completely different reactions to it. It is my opinion that trauma occurs in an environment where your feelings and emotional experience are not valued, heard and understood. The specific event is not the cause of traumatic experience. This lack of a “relational home” for feelings is the true cause of traumatic experience. Finding support is key. A more intimate meet and greet could cause Gaga anxiety, depressive episodes, panic attacks, somatization (physical pain), etc, especially with the latest events that have happened at pop concerts Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
sipthistea 21,099 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 Thank You Still can't believe, after all she's been through, that she's still able to put on a massive show and deliver like she does every night. If that was me, I would have retired. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
dannydevito 10,658 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 this fanbase is so ungrateful all the time that it makes me sick, and they think they can say absolutely everything because "they have the right to disagree and they don't follow gaga blindly like many other fans do", not being hard on her is not being blind is understanding whats shes going through and all the thousands things she may have not told us, tbh sometimes they even sound like those people who say any bullshit and excuse it citing freedom of expression, makes me wanna puke Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
androiduser 7,438 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 I understand that she may not be able to do intimate friendly pics like she used to, but it doesn't explain the high price. Sure, if fans are willing to pay, it's their right, but I don't think there's a way to spin the high price into something positive, or worthy of consideration. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
lost in limbo 6,035 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 I honestly feel so bad for her.. I saw a video where she admitted she had PTSD the other day and most comments accused her of faking it.. Or mean posts on other videos saying she faked her hip breaking, or accusing her of copying Madonna by saying she was raped.. It's just terrible how everyone is so terrible to her, she never asked for all this But I feel proud of her for coming clean about her issues and being strong and moving on this is the state of grace, this is the worthwhile fight Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
lost in limbo 6,035 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 9 minutes ago, androiduser said: I understand that she may not be able to do intimate friendly pics like she used to, but it doesn't explain the high price. Sure, if fans are willing to pay, it's their right, but I don't think there's a way to spin the high price into something positive, or worthy of consideration. Probably it's not her decision tho this is the state of grace, this is the worthwhile fight Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
DawnNutella 2,805 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 I couldn't imagine being hugged and kissed by strangers all the time. I've never been abused and it still makes me uncomfortable for people to be all in my personal space. Even though we feel like we know her, she doesn't "know" all of her fans and I'm sure doesn't want strangers in her face all the time. Let her breathe. She's a human, with feelings, not a robot. Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ARTPOPSlays Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 People just need to stop judging, she has a personal life too Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
PeterPan 0 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 im too lazy to read can someone give me a summary of what she said Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
dannydevito 10,658 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 Just now, KingOfTheClouds said: im too lazy to read can someone give me a summary of what she said no Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
lost in limbo 6,035 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 3 minutes ago, KingOfTheClouds said: im too lazy to read can someone give me a summary of what she said sis really this is the state of grace, this is the worthwhile fight Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
PeterPan 0 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 Just now, Eclipsa said: sis really yes lol Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
lost in limbo 6,035 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 Just now, KingOfTheClouds said: yes lol Just read or leave, this behavior is disrespectful for a thread like this this is the state of grace, this is the worthwhile fight Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
PeterPan 0 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 I was wrong to think this way Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
PeterPan 0 Posted August 13, 2017 Share Posted August 13, 2017 2 minutes ago, Eclipsa said: Just read or leave, this behavior is disrespectful for a thread like this I did read......jeez....chill a bit Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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