Outrun - Nico X

[Queen Gloria 3,353]

Another entry in my growing collection of retrowave/80s inspired depression ballads. This one goes out to anyone who has been suicidal and felt outcast and forgotten. I hope my music reaches and touches some of you. I may not be studio perfect and professional, but I'm a passionate musician who needs to share myself with the world. Cheers - NX

I don’t wanna spend another night on my own 
You heard me break down on the other end of the phone 
I told that I wanna join the 27 club 
You told me just to hang on, and it gets better
Where were you when I hit my new rock bottom? 
If I could change time I’d skip ahead

Fast forward all the misery and dread
I wish I could go back to the good times 
Erase all the pain in my head 
We can’t outrun the hands of time

I’m friends with the spiders and the flies that crawl on my window
They know about the nature that we’ve lost touch with 
The voices in my mind, they still love you
Even though you ignore us 
Now I’m choking on my neon tears 
I don’t know I’ve wasted all these years

Where are you, where are you, where are you baby? 
We can’t outrun the hands time 
Calling you, calling you, scream through the static
Are you still hanging on the line?

Miss me with your broken promises 
I can’t do anything with half your heart 
I will not be an afterthought. I’ll never be your second option 
You’ll never know 
You’ll never know 
How it feels to live in the shadows 
You’ll never know
You’ll never know 
Why I stare out at this city alone

Where are you, where are you, where are you baby? 
We can’t outrun the hands time 
Calling you, calling you, scream through the static
Are you still hanging on the line?
You’ll never know 
How I’ve felt all these years 
You’ll never know
Why I cry these neon tears 
I’m calling you but you can’t hear me 
You’ll never know what it feels like to be me

© Nico Xenakis 2018