So I booked Come to Mama at Birmingham 1st Feb (tomorrow!) and I have been changing my mind several times a day if I should go or not. I tried to sell it but it was too late, so I ended up destroying my ticket tonight (I know I'm stupid) but just to put my mind at ease as if to finally say NO to  myself. It was mentally driving me crazy and making me ill (I would call it OCD and irrational mind-changing).  I have very bad anxiety and I keep worrying there will be a bombing like in Mancheste